Wednesday, April 29, 2015

A Cautionary Tale.

"Listen to me, Dog. I would never go any further than this. I always in for the kill, so you can count on me. We're the apex predator here, Dog. We're ready to blow some shits this morning. Yeah, call me a serial killer then I'll blow your head off. Two years after this, meet me in Italy. Good food and red wine, geez, I'm gonna dine like an Italian. Or meet me in Brazil. The country has no extradition treaty with our country. Man, I'll be worshiping those Brazilian girls! Well, I've been away too long. I need to go home. Home is where the answer is. I need to see my boss ass bitch. And one thing, there's no honorable way to kill, Dog. No gentle way to destroy. There is nothing good in war, except its ending."

"Yeah, you've seen the worst, Smoke. You watched your commander calmly shot your brothers down and burned their bodies. It was something. It was a good shot. It was unbelievable. You're tired. You need to throw away all of your guns and invite all the jokers from the North and the South to make you laugh. You've been conveying pain and fear. When you start considering who really are the leads in the game, it's the people you see the most, doing all the saving, the planning with that fancy moves. But it's all yours. You did a very good job. You had the chance to make things right."

"Ha, you right, Dog. You see, chances don't always mean a happy ending. Sometimes, it's just another shot to end things right. God is not on the side of the big battalions, but on the side of those who shoot best. I got you, Dog, the best sniper in the galaxy. Now, face the reality. The war isn't over yet. For me, it hasn't even started yet. Keep on reloading your shit, Smoke. Kill those suicide bombers. Tell Drums and M.K to bomb the town right away. I'll go now."

"Aye, Smoke, copy that. Be ready..."

Friday, April 24, 2015

My Notes From The Ocean Floor.

I have lived through many ages,
Through the eyes of a child, an eagle, and a wolf.
I have seen so many people invading my mind,
And destroying all in search of love.

I have seen the beauty inside me thriving in a fragile heart.
I have seen myself suffering in the darkness.
I have seen so many loving faces,
Turning back with regret.

When I met you in a hopeless place,
I felt strange.
It wasn't you.
But you succeed.

I've been crying in my sleep almost every night.
Ten months,
I've been missing someone for ten months.
My precious one, my man.

He breathes a fresh vitality into a familiar sound,
He helps me to create an atmosphere that is wistfully remembered.
He's the water thats runs down the river to the sea, over and over again.
He's my Atlantic ocean.

There are times when I am so deeply involved to our relationship,
And I completely lose my sense of self.
I swim so deep into him and forget where and who I am.
Then I come up for air like a deep sea diver.

I love you.
I won't give up that easy.
I will walk through the forest to find you.
To find happiness, in the summer air.

Friday, April 10, 2015

Sea of Voices.

Do you ever feel so tired,
You just want to sit there,
And end up everything?

Do you ever feel,
What you've been doing are useless?
You didn't get the point,
And you're like, "Fuck it, I give up"?

I was like, "Fuck this shit, fuck you, I'm leaving".
He was there, in front of me,
He was starring at me like a hungry baby.

I was like, "I am not that kind of woman".
"I am not that cranky bitch who wants everything".
But you were like, "I don't care".
"I just want to be with you".

I begged him to open his mind wider.
He said, "I did".
"I always do".
"But it always been you".

I asked him to go away.
And he said, "Do I really need to go?"
"You can drive me away, but you will never can move my heart".
"You cannot erase the feeling for a woman who changed your life".

"Are you the boy who has been living with me for almost a year?", I asked.
He didn't smile.
"I am the boy you love".
"I am the boy who will regret if I let you walk away from me".

"I am the boy who loves to see you happy", he said.
"I am the boy who sacrifices his time for his girl".
"I am the boy who guards you wherever you go".
"I am the boy, who looks after you even when you're gone".

"Don't ever give up on me. I love you. I love to see you. I love the way you think. I love the way you protect me. You are worth to look after. Falling in love with you is like coming home to a place I didn't realize I'd been missing all my life. You're the only person I've ever known who accepts me for who I am, right in this moment, faults and all, and isn't waiting for me to become someone else. Even though you're an independent woman and you don't need a companion, I am very grateful you're here. I wish I knew what you were thinking. I wish I could slip into your head and see the world the way you do. I wish I could see myself the way you do. You belong to me. You could do anything you wanted with me and I would let you. You could ask anything. My heart tells me this is the best and the greatest feeling I have ever had. All night I've watched you sleeping, I've never seen anything more beautiful and I keep thinking of the life we could have in the future. No, you didn't trick me to love you. It was me and my curiosity back then. Don't leave me, even for a minute. Because you're a woman that I will always admire and I will lost without you".