The Enemy of My Enemy Is My Friend.

There are no reasons.

Why I predicted this from a long time ago.

With eyes wide open,

I hate this part right here.

I gave years,

I gave lies,

I gave everything,

And I gave up.

You were my passion.

Now you're a just a lost memories of mine.

You were my protector.

But now you're just somebody else.

I found something.

And I missed it.

Why did I predict this?

Why did I choose?

I left my heartbeat there,

For you to remember.

For you to feel,

That I am hurt for what you've done to me.

I left my pain,

Scattered on the floor.

For you to find,

For you to touch.

My decision is not an option.

What I choose, is what I care about.

I won't let go what I have.

I will love, I will watch.

I'm in love with the life I've been living.

I ran, I fell, I laughed, I cried.

This is my home.

And his life is my home.

His my ornaments of life.

We are the diamonds in the sky.

He's the one who came in my lucid dream.

He's the one, who believes.

I know that I predicted this before.

I know that I am wrong sometimes.

But if I can't have the one I love,

I will love the one I have.

The Boy Who Carries His Favorite Crayons.

Humming,

Little Ja is humming.

His favorite song, beyond the trees.

Feeling the wind through his body.

His spirit lingers here on this valley.

He says "Hi" to the sky,

Hey, hi back at you.

He's smiling, his colors bursting out from his body.

I wish that I could turn back time.

Back to the place I used to run.

Back to the moment I used to laugh.

Back to the time, I used to love.

Rainbow, wind and clouds.

Birds, dragonflies and ducks.

Sky, sky, sky.

I lived my life happily back then.

Are you done with your humming session?

Now, look at me.

Do you see my colors?

Do you feel my colors?

You're the heart of my ocean.

You keep your things in your head,

You hold nothing back.

No, you're not wrong.

Little Ja is running towards the lake.

Chasing butterfly.

A butterfly I cannot see.

His imagination is stronger than ever.

He's screaming my name.

Asking me to join his imagination.

Let me come, let me in.

Let me fill your world of imagination with love.

Let me do the rest.

Lucy's Confession.

Find.

Follow.

Feel.

Love.

We laughed.

We gave questions,

We gave answers,

We shared.

You're in the moment where I can't resist.

You walk through the wall I made.

You told me to pray.

You hold me in your hands.

Remember when I was sleeping on your bed while you were watching soccer with your friends?

And then you came and stayed for a minutes?

You stroked my hair, you watched me.

I wasn't sleeping, and I held back my tears.

I felt you.

I listened to your heart beat that night.

I heard you breathing.

You were near, so near.

Your beating heart is my elegy.

Your voice and your words are my lullaby.

We are seeing each other under the same pressure.

We are breathing in the same dream in a different place.

If I could just stay a moment in your light,

I'm never afraid if I'm within your sight.

Don't you wait, hearts will come.

Forever will be ours. 

These are the days I'll carry on with my life,

Can I just stand here in your arms for now?

Don't worry, I will stay.

You know I will stay by you, forever.

Humming Little Nacita.

My angel is all grown up.

She looks beautiful.

She has her mother's dimples.

She has her father's face.

I swear to God I really want to watch my princess grows.

I want to teach her how to count to twenty,

How to love somebody.

I want to see how she sees the world with her own eyes.

I want to take her to school.

I want her to wear tutu or a bee costume.

I want to take her to the beach.

And yes, just the two of us.

Your face reminds me a lot with your father.

Your father was my tutor, my guardian, my best friend, my brother before this.

Your father is the best I ever had.

And I am missing him so much right now.

Hey, you there,

I cried when your daughter called me "Bunda".

I want her to have a long black hair like you said.

I want to grow old with her.

But she is not mine.

She belongs to her mother.

She is not my priority.

But I promise myself I will always pray for her.

I wish that she will have a good life and a good attitude.

Back to mine,

My priorities now are my life, my thesis, my works,

And this boy who decided to live with me.

And dearest, my prayer will always goes to you.

I know it hurts to see her grow without you by her side.

I know it hurts, when she needed her papa but you weren't there.

But I know, you're watching her, right?

And I know, you're smiling right now.

I have to move forward.

She will be fine I hope.

And for you,

I hope you're happy for what you've been seeing so far.

You Belong To the Avenue of the Stars.

Aries,

Where the hell are you?

I am sad, you hear me?

What the hell are you doing right now?

I saw a guy this afternoon.

He held his baby girl in his arms.

He kissed her fondly, he watched her eyes with his heart.

And he reminded me of someone I cannot have back because he went down a path I cannot follow.

You.

Magic happened and you went away.

Happiness arrived but you weren't there to enjoyed it.

Sadness landed here on my face but you weren't here to felt it with me.

You weren't everywhere, neither was I.

Did you go to a several beautiful places?

Did you light up your fireworks?

Did you ever see me cry?

Such a catasthrope I had back then.

I am sorry, terribly sorry.

I can't hold back my tears.

Fuck, I miss you so damn much.

Still, you can't ease my burden.

For now you are an incubus inside my head.

All I need is you to lift me up from this abyss full of fear and pain.

Please, don't ever bring me down, again.

Please, listen to my echoes.

We both know what's right and wrong.

We painted the skies and we made tragedies.

Both of us are such a crazy aliens.

You and I, belong to the avenue of the stars.

To fall asleep with you would be heaven, you know that.

But the dimensions we are living right now is so fucking different.

And it hurts.

You made your own decision, so you shut down your life and your world.

I can't bring you back to life.

But your memories linger here forever.

But how long will I go on before I realize that I already lost you anyway?

All I want is you to come here and sit with me.

One day,

I will find you, I will reach you.

Imprisoning you, in my life.

So you won't go far.

Fuck you, Aries. You were mine and I fucking miss you so damn much.

Inhaling Fire.

We won't make it.

It won't work.

We can't do this.

Shit.

You cannot force your heart to love someone.

You cannot force your mind to believe something that actually, you doubt it.

Synchronize your mind and your heart.

Find the conclusion and stop asking why.

But I keep listening to what you say.

I keep watching you from a distance.

I keep on trying.

Because I know what's best for me and you know that too.

I gave up twice.

I hurt a lot.

I fucked my heart and my mind.

Because I lost everything I loved in a blink of an eye.

Maybe you're not the only one.

Maybe you came to not to save me.

You came, to make me stronger.

You're here, to make me realize that I am no better.

If you plan to leave,

I have to give us a space, a big space.

No more torment, my heart is poor.

But I will show you that I am fine without you, though I will cry in my room.

No need to hurry because the clock is ticking slowly.

Why don't we have a ride?

Citylights and a cup of hot chocolate would be good.

Leave these behind, enjoy the night.

Thunderstorm.

I Can't.

When A Swan Fell In Love With An Eagle.

There's something I can't say about you.

How your eyes see the world,

How you shines,

There are hundred things I can not see.

I can't read you.

I won't read you.

I am not afraid,

You're just 2000 light years away from me.

I want to reach you someday.

I want to see your happiness breaks upon me.

I want to see how far you can handle us.

Will you trust me?

You are my teacher, a strong one.

You're someone who can handle me at my worst.

You remind me, you rewind, and you remember it.

You care.

You keep your head high,

You keep your mind off the ground, to the sky.

You blended with my colors,

You, are you to be proud of.

When our eyes met in the deep sea,

I knew that I almost there,

In a place where I could share my stories all day long.

You are not a ghost in disguise.

We walk together through the risk, aren't we?

You have no back-up plan and gently, you started this.

You put yourself before me.

You're not giving up on me.

Dearly beloved,

I can feel you even with my eyes closed.

Turn your head, look at me.

You're the most beautiful dawn in January.

My Heaven Lies In You.

Poems and visions.

Songs and memories.

Ocean and mountains.

Blue and green.

Heartbeats and tears.

Raindrops and thunders.

Red cheeks and warm bodies.

Happiness and sadness.

Bring me back to life.

Wake me up.

Save me and take me home.

I want to see your eyes one more time.

I need you,

And you need me.

I can't go.

I can't see you from here.

Who's going to handle you when I am not around?

Who's going to calm you down when nobody can do it?

Who's going to wipe your tears when you miss someone?

Who's going to protect you when I am so far away from you?

Don't give up on me.

Find me, find a away to find me.

I am here, yes, I am here, darling.

Look at me, reach me, reach my hand.

I love you.

Don't go too far.

I will keep my eyes wide open.

For you, I will survive.

If only I can show you what I have been seeing,

If only I can lend these eyes for you,

You will see the most beautiful color,

Bursting out from your body.

Don't let go.

Don't go.

I want to live with you,

And make the euphoria of our happiness explodes into a thousand bright colors.

Let me live in your arms, forever.

Lucy In the Sky With Diamonds.

Hello, this is Lucy.

Lucy has something to say.

Lucy wrote it down on a paper.

Lucy named it, "Lucy's Letter".

Jakob,

Why are you here?

Such a coincidence, isn't it?

It's been months we haven't had a nice quality time like this.

You're such a hero.

Too wise to let go,

Too hard to not to talk to.

You bring happiness when you're beside me.

I made you a golden throne.

To show you that you're a different kind.

Why?

Because you believe that your belief is real.

You know what I need.

You know what I want.

You know what I like.

You put yourself before me.

When I needed air, you gave me wind.

When I needed water, you gave me ocean.

When I asked you to bring me a flower, you took to me to a field full of purple asters.

And when I am scared of myself, you calmed me down and gave me words to move on.

You taught me how to conquer myself.

You reminded me that there is a way.

You told me to live on.

You helped me to walk away.

A boy who has a thousand views of art for living.

A boy who can control his anger and settle differences without destroying himself.

The one who keeps his strength as a key for his life.

A lovely man to share your happiness and to grow old with.

Jakob,

You are my brother, my father, my best-friend  my savior, my right eyes and the voices inside my head.

Keep on telling me stories.

Be the one I can be proud of and count on.

I won't lose you out of sight.

My eyes are watching yours.

Don't let me down,

Because you won't let myself down.

Thank you!

Keep on singing my song.

Stay here, as the wind in my Neverland.

I hope you'll be good out there.

With my eyes closed for missing someone,

Love, Hugs and Kisses,

Little Lucy.

Don't You Worry, Anggia.

I know that those days are gone,

And my eyes aren't begging for your existence anymore.

But I still remember how it all changed.

It was hurt.

Remind me,

That we are not in the same dimension anymore.

Remind me,

That we are not seeing the same sun anymore.

I held you close,

But you let me go.

I wiped your tears,

But you torn my heart in two.

My heart is not your home anymore.

We do not share the same dream anymore.

I belong to another hands.

So do you.

There was a time,

When we cried ourselves to sleep,

Just because we were missing each other.

Such a memory, such a dream.

And now I am fully awake.

I am stronger than you will ever know.

I will reach the horizon alone,

And please, don't ever try to reach me.

Because you are already dead,
here, in my memories.

Cold-Blooded Killer In the Mind of Eros.

I am fine.

I am okay.

You don't have to ask.

All you need is to come here and sit with me.

You're my favorite color.
Your color blends with my skin, my eyes.

And your voice, my elegy, my song.

I just love to see you.

But you're tearing me apart inside.
You're bringing me somewhere down the line.

You don't feel what I'm feeling right now.

You don't see the color I'm seeing right now.

One day,
When you turn your attention to another person,

You will leave.

Your eyes will be unfamiliar for me.

But I am glad,
To know that you will find someone.

I am glad,

You're in love again after a thousand heart-breaking moments from your past.

The healing power of tears and laughter will serve me well.
Another man will revive me from the dead.

I will walk away,

In denial.

Now, let me ask.
How could I mend my broken heart,

Without questioning myself how do you do,

Without pretending that I don't know you?

Without loving you from a distance?

Thank You Alesso, Sebastian Ingrosso and Ryan Tedder For "Calling (Lose My Mind)".

Let the rain falls down.
Let the raindrops hit our faces.

Lose your mind and jump as high as you can.

Feel the beat and act crazy.

You will find me.

I will find you.

You will reach me.

I will reach you.

Don't stop.

Keep on moving to the beat.

Hold my hands.

The world is spinning for us.

We don't need gravity.

Are you cold?

Here's my arms, hold onto it.

Fall for me.

Close your eyes.

We are in heaven of our imagination.

Feel the rain, let the raindrops washes your pain away.

Share your happiness, let me feel it.

Fuck those voices inside your head.
Think of me, of us.

The rain won't stop for us.

Because your body keeps on dancing like crazy.

Smile, and everybody's watching.
Watch me and I'll watch you.

Cry, feel the music and let it through.

We are lighter than air.

Shit, I love you. I swear I love you so much.

Ten Minutes Running.

Teruntuk kamu,

Yang tidak tahu diri.

Yang seenaknya datang dan pergi.

Kumohon, cukup.

Aku biarkan kamu untuk singgah di balik kehancuranku.

Dan aku menerimamu dengan tangan terbuka.

Tapi kenapa aku harus berjalan bersamamu dan kebohonganmu?

Kumohon, cukup.

Aku tidak dibuat untuk direlakan.

Aku hadir tapi tidak untuk ditinggalkan.

Aku berdiri untuk medampingi kamu.

Aku berdiri untuk melengkapi bagian hidupmu yang hilang.

Kamu bisa bayangkan,

Betapa pedihnya aku ketika aku diharuskan untuk bernafas di sampingmu.

Lihat aku.

Sadarkah kamu? Kedua mataku hancur karena terlalu banyak mengeluarkan air mata?

Aku mau bahagia sama kamu.

Kita bisa tembus kebahagiaan itu.

Tapi kamu tidak sadari itu karena kedua matamu ditutup oleh kenyataan.

Jadi, untuk apa aku datang dan bertemu dengan kamu?

Kumohon, pergilah.

Pergi jauh, hingga aku tidak dapat menggapaimu.

Aku akan membuat diriku seperti sedang bermimpi.

Lalu terbangun dan menyadari bahwa aku tidak pernah mengenalmu.

If you love me, you will breathe my name.

But if you are not, you will walk away forever.

When My Idealism Gets High.

You knocked my door and ran away.

You pushed me to move out.

But you pulled me closer.

What happened to us?

It was me all along.

My idealism slapped my face.

No,

My idealism has been attacking me until today.

How could I lose it for myself?

For us?

The only way to do it is to love you with what you have.

For what you are.

But I want it this way, not that way.

But I know if I force myself to walk my life in a perfect life,

I won't get what I want.

So I have to let you in and let myself learn a bunch of things from you.

But I am scared.

Scared of what will happen next.

Scared of welcoming new people.

I am scared of lonely.

I have been hurt twice last year.

The condition makes me afraid to move forward.

I am afraid to love, to be loved, to wish and to be wished for.

But I won't let it happen again for myself.

I hope I will find someone,

Who understands me so well without asking,

Who realizes what I need without saying,

Who serves me what I deserve.

When the clock ticks my life away,

That means I am ready for what I will receive.

And if it was you, the one that God has been planning for,

Then I promise you and myself that I will take a good care of you for the rest of my life.

You Will Never Make It Through the Rain Without Me By Your Side.

Thank you,

For disturbing my eyes.

Thank you,

For being such a nice person.

Thank you,

For being here and everywhere.

Thank you,

For giving me a bunch of questions.

Why are you here?

Why did you say hi?

Why did you always check up on me?

Why do you do this?

You are my one of my favorites.

You knew how to tame me.

You're such a good man.

But why did you leave me hanging?

I pour half of my heart for you.

I let you live in my head.

Do you let me to live in yours?

Or am I just an old broken doll for you?

I let you know my life.

Half of it.

Why don't you let me?

Let me know and I'll be there standing next to you.

I know our world is different.

Too different.

But I feel warm by your existance.

I feel good.

Now, let me see with my own eyes.

Are you a good man or 'a-good-man-for-now'?

Prove me then I will reach you.

Prove me then I will hold you.

"If you are down with someone, doesn't mean that you have to own them for life"

Such a deadly weapon your words are.

Now I close my eyes and start to dream.

We'll meet there if you have the same dream like mine.

Sir,

Don't start what you can't finish.

I Am Not A Soldier With A Heart Made ​​of Wood.

Don't ever think,

That I don't know the truth.

I know your life,

And I know your position.

Okay, fine.

I don't know you.

But I searched the truth.

And I didn't like what I found.

Please.

Don't make me want you.

Don't make me think that you're the one for me.

Don't make feel comfortable with you.

Your words are not going to kill me.

My brain is working.

Don't make me feel like I am the one you've been searching for.

Because I am not.

I know you but I don't know your world.

Your taste, your favorite things.

Let her satisfies you with what she has.

With what she has done to your life.

I am nobody.

I'm just a new person here.

The truth I found in you makes me say, "Fuck it."

So, don't make me turn that shit into a "Fuck You."

So here you are.

Don't be such a denial person.

You're too old for that.

And I'm too old to watch.