Monday, November 30, 2015

It's Just, Realizing That the Only Person You Really Have Control Over is Yourself.

I know that everything and everyone that I hate is engraved upon my heart.
If you want to let go of something,
If you want to forget,
You have to be ready.

The truth is,
Unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself,
Unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over,
You can't move forward.

I tried,
I did, and I moved forward.
But it tickles, isn't it?
That feeling, that memories.

It was hard,
Because I fell so deep.
It was heavy,
I fucked up.

But in the end, only three things matter.
How much you loved,
How gently you lived,
And how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.

Because no matter how much suffering I went through,
I never wanted to let go of those memories.
Those precious memories,
Are priceless.

I've no time to say goodbye.
Secret tears were flowing gently,
When I rush through it,
You were gone before I knew it.

Now, I am taking control,
And accepting that love and everything that followed it is part of letting it go.
I'm okay.
I'll turn my back on you forever.

Sunday, November 15, 2015

When No Wind Whirled.

I know you've been trying really hard to read my mind,
But you failed.
I know you've been trying to figure out my heart,
No, you can't

From now and forever,
I won't let you know what's inside me.
I won't let your eyes beg for it.
I won't let you walk closer.

But listen,
I can only pray,
I can only see,
What you really want to be in the next five years.

Hold her close,
Let me go.
Tell her you love her,
Let me walk away from here.

One thing,
Let me live in your eyes,
Let me be in your prayers,
Let me walk hand in hand with you in another dream.

Together Alone.

I was walking into the blue,
When he just got out from his imagination.
I asked him what happened,
He just stood there, and smiled.

We walked behind the pines,
Mountain smell, our favorite,
Brought us back to a time,
Where things were fine.

He wanted to be a miracle,
To be someone for someone,
And I said that he already has,
But he didn't believe my mouth.

And we ran,
In the snow,
Through our memories,
Through everything.

We won't come back.
He pulled me and cried.
I won't let you go, he said.
Then don't, I replied.

Enfold Me.

You are the blue lagoon,
Set in the pure heart of a naive little boy.
You are my salvation,
My light.

I learned a lot from you.
You're a droid.
You're a gambler,
You're a free soul.

You paint your dreams on a black canvas.
You love to play with your mind.
You are on your own again,
And you are emotionally fragile.

I know that you cried in silence on a misty weekend in winter.
I know that you smiled when I told you that your voice sounds familiar in my ears,
I know that you spoke about hope and love in the turbulence,
And I know that you tried to find grace and you failed.

I love the way you see the meeting of the sacred and the ordinary.
I love the way you solve the puzzle in me,
And I love the way you sing your heart out,
It's like, a one long song.

But we can't.
We just can't.
We can't go on.
Because we're on a different train.