Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Just Take A Look Through My Eyes.


Gue, mungkin bisa dibilang orang yang sangat amat biasa-biasa aja dengan keadaan sekitar, terutama sama orang-orang di sekitar gue. Mau itu orang rusak kek, murahan kek, baik banget kek, cantik banget kek, jelek banget kek, kirin! (kirin itu singkatan dari 'emg gue pikirin' haha penting).

Now, let me tell you something.

1. Mau temen gue murahan kek, apa kek, gue ga peduli. Kenapa? Itu kan urusan dia sama Tuhan dan diri dia, kok gue ikut campur? Badan badan dia, hak dia juga lah. Mungkin gue bisa dibilang jahat karena ga ngelarang dia, tapi ya, gw dasarnya begitu sih, agak cuek dan kirin sama orang-orang sekitar gue. Orang juga mau ngecap gue sejelek apa kek, yaudah sih, cap aja gue begini dan begitu, tapi kalo kenyataannya gue ga sejelek itu, kan malu juga nanti. Ya intinya, mau temen gue murahan kek, asal dia ga ngerepotin, ngerugiin dan fine2 aja sama gue, ya why not buat dijadiin temen?

2. Gue orangnya terlalu percaya sama orang, siapapun itu. Mau baru kenal kek apa udah lama kek, gue percaya banget2an dan kalo mereka bikin masalah sama gue, pasti gue maafin, ya... Walopun gue dendaman dan pengen bales, tapi seiring waktu perasaan dendam itu lama2 ilang juga kok, dan gue juga belajar dewasa lah dari situ. Ga ada salahnya untuk maafin orang yang udah punya salah sama kita, daripada kesel mulu sama orang itu bawaannya, mending biasa2 aja, ga bikin capek hati juga kan?

3. Gue terlalu sayang sama temen2 gue, siapapun itu. Dan... Sayangnya, gue lebih sayang sama temen2 gw daripada sama badan gue sendiri ;)

4. Gue ngeliat temen gue yang pacaran, nyelingkuhin orang lain, gue biasa aja sih sejujurnya... Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa karena menurut gue, selama ijab kabul belom dilakuin, orang bebas ngelakuin apa yang mereka mau, termasuk dalam hal pacaran. Orang pacaran kan, ga terikat hubungan apa2 sebenernya, belom sah juga, jadi mereka bebas ngelakuin apa aja dong, cuma etika dan harga menghargai aja yang bikin itu agak terhambat. Tergantung orangnya sih mau gimana, kalo orangnya selow (kasarnya kurang ajar) ya... Harga menghargai dan etika bukan hambatan. Tapi yah... Kalo buat gue, jangan sampe deh laki gue begitu HAHA tapi itu hak dia juga sih.

5. Gue ngeliat temen gue, cewe, yang ngerokok, ITU HAL YANG SANGAT AMAT BIASAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~ gimana ya, di lingkungan gue, rata2 semua cewek ngerokok sih... Dan saya harap jangan ngejudge yang aneh2 tentang perempuan merokok.. Hak mereka, dan resikonya udah mereka tanggung sendiri kok. Kita sih belom ada kesadaran emang untuk ke depannya... Tapi ya gimana? Dilarang percuma, ini saya akui. Gue bukannya ngebela mereka karena gue juga perokok aktif, tapi yaudah sih, itu kan urusan mereka, ngefek buruk ke elo emang? Kalo iya, jangan deket2 sama mereka ato ga sadarin mereka untuk ga ngerokok di area ini, bukan musuhin mereka dan nyuruh mereka berhenti. Pengalaman gue mengatakan, temen gue dulu ada yang ngata2in cewek yang ngerokok eh sekarang ngerokok juga... la la la~

6. Cewek ngebir? Syudah biyasyaa jugaaa~ rokok dan bir gue anggep biasa banget di mata gue. Mungkin karena pengalaman pribadi... HAHAH tapi kalo ada cewek ngebir, cuma bir bintang sebotol aja terus mabok, itu (maaf) gue ketawain. Hey, ini bir bintang bukan anggyur meyaah~ dan juga.. Katanya kan, minuman yang memabukan itu haram hukumnya, berarti selama kita ga mabok minum bir, ga apa dong? (ajaran kakek gue) ya terserah kalian saja mau anggep itu halal apa haram :D

7. Gue agak... Tidak menyukai orang yang suka ngomongin orang lain kecuali buat bercanda ya HAHA kalo ngomonginnya kaya sirik gitu... Go to hell aja deh, mending dijadiin bercandaan ga sih (walopun jahat) daripada nyirikin di belakang?

8. Semua orang di dunia ini ga ada yang ga munafik. Gue paling sebel sama orang yang cerita ke gue setengah2, takut disalahin lah, takut harga dirinya turun lah, takut dianggep orang jahat lah.. Hey, lo cerita sama gue ga usah ada yang ditutup2in, gue disini bantu lo dan lo udah minta tolong gue buat denger cerita lo kan, nah, terus, apa yang harus ditutupin? Ga ada kan! Blak2an aja, gue ga akan menganggap apa yang lo udah ceritain ke gue itu hal negatif, toh udah kejadian juga dan waktu ga bisa diulang juga kan? Yaudah sih. Dan kenapa sih orang lebih takut cerita sama gue dibanding cerita sama Tuhan? Tuhan Maha Tahu loh, lo ga bilang juga Tuhan tau, kenapa begitu ya? Ckckck...

Masih banyak yang lain2 dan saya ga usah tulis disini... Intinya, I dont give a damn if one of my friends is a bitch. Itu hak mereka kan, saya sudah tulis tadi :D masa kita yang lebih sayang sama badan dia daripada dia sayang sama badannya? Mending kita sayang sama badan kita dulu kan... Nanti juga doi ditegur sama Tuhan... Inti yang lain, saya memandang apapun begitu biasa saja karena apa? Mungkin karena dari dulu gue udah main sama orang yang jauh lebih tua dari gue dan udah diajarin biar ngerti. Yah... Mencoba lebih terbuka aja jadi orang :D

Selamat berfikir :D

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Noah? Still Using the Same Skinny Jeans For Years? That's Freakin' Cool.


Noah came to visit. He gave me a very wide smile. He looked the same, big black hair, skinny and all black. Still I cant see his eyes.

Noah asked me about my feelings right now. Unintelligible.

He took out something from his pocket, cigarette. He burned it and emitted a wreath of smoke. He sit near me as I laid down on the bed. He bit his lip, and said, "You'll never gonna make it".

I looked at him, he didnt look back. "You're letting your suggestion controls you. Dont let 'em. You'll die in vain because of it".

"Noah, unexpected feelings come everytime", I tried to give an objection, and he said, "I know, but, do you still call it an unexpected feelings? You already know that this will come. Think about your body, Mon. She's getting weak everytime it starts".

Noah was right. "But Noah, I've been trying to fix myself and it works.... Well, atleast for a while". "That words can turn out to forever, Mon. Careful".

Maybe, all of you dont understand what he had said. Let me tell ya, unexpected feelings come just because our suggestion is stronger than you know. It makes you weak, eventhough you're a strong person with a strong feelings.

Noah, what should I do?

"Cry. It's human nature. Eventhough crying wont resolve your problems..... Atleast it makes you feel a lot better. For this condition, I suggest you to cry first, think hard later", good answer. "By crying, you letting it all out. You'll feel better. You can think normally again. It makes you 'clean', got it? Relax, he loves you so much".

I dont have anything to say. That's the answer. Noah really understands me.

"Just pretend to be okay or you'll make him feel heavy".

Our conversation ended. I told him that I am so sleepy, I couldnt hold it anymore. Noah smiled and he said "Goodnight, be ready". And he went away without saying anything. Thanks.

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Hey Yo Bruno, I Think My Thoughts Profoundly Calming My Emotions.

Bruno, thankyou. Well, I'm feeling a lot better now. I dont know if it's just a temporary feeling or what but.... I've been trying to make it comes out positively. And, at the moment, it works.

My friends told me that, a lot of girls are waiting their babies too. They survived, so why cant I survive while they can? I am a strong girl, I am not that weak. I told my baby that words, and he said "That's a good motivation" well, good motivation always comes from something around us, and for me, good motivation comes from him :)

I guess I dont have to fooling myself around with this problem, it'll make me look uncool. Better think in a positive way so everything goes good, for me and him.

Well Bruno, I really love this boy. My arms will miss him more than they know. I'm going to make it all ok, or maybe, I'm going to make it looks ok. Nevermind. No, I dont give a damn by the way.

It's 2:15 am. Gosh, I thought it's still 12:30 am! Should sleep now, thanks Bruno. For being a great imaginary friend. Thankyou. Visit me sometimes.

Monday, November 29, 2010

Dear Bruno, I Found Myself Seeking Any Excuse. Yeah, I Feel More Restricted Today.


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Until this moment, I never understood how hard it was to lose something you never had.


I hate these feelings. I hate myself. Well..... Fyi, this is not an emo poem or diary or what.. Only the sound of my shallow heart, because it has been screaming for a long time. Let's end this shit.

Bruno, whoever you are, wherever you are, I'm sick. This situation kills me. My eyes cant take it anymore. I dont have the strenght for this. Too hard for me, my baby will leave the town, and I'm still counting down the days, though I hurt.

What? I should get used to the situation? Yes, you're right. 100 percent right. But it's not easy, the situation makes me weak everytime I take a peek to my calendar. If you say that I dont have to fuckin see the calendar, you wrong. What day is today? Saturday? Oh and I go to college, starts on Monday. MONDAY. He'll go on Saturday, I give a damn.

What? I'm overreacting? Hey, my suggestions are stronger than you know, yea and it kills me. It buzzes my head every minute, even when I'm not thinking about him. I am too afraid, everything will change as he goes away.

What? He'll comeback? Ofcourse he will. Just the matter of a time. But what about my first week walking without him by my side? Can I? I'm afraid I'll be shock like hell, he used to touch me, hug me and pick me up, and what now? Once again, I give a damn! And yes, I'm overreacting.

What? Just be patient? I'm a patient of patience. I know, patience is a virtue, or I'm a victim of a virtue? Well, my baby used to tell me that I have to do something patiently, and I did. And I hope it works, forever. I will wait. Mark that.

Yes, Bruno. I am wrong. I could have made him feel bad.. Now, I made him feel bad. His heart heavy. I shouldnt do this, I shouldnt say this. But it makes me feel better to let it all out. But still, it doesnt make me stronger. My weakness caused me pain. I'm a fool. I understand. And again, I give a damn.

Yes, Bruno. Smile. Thought my heart is aching, eventhough it's breaking. Love that song by the way. I will smile to make him feel ok, I will laugh, to make him feel happy. Yes, Bruno. I should go to sleep. Goodnight.

Sunday, November 21, 2010

I Guess Love Wouldn't Let Me.

Well,
























Aku hanya terlalu takut jauh dari kamu.

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Rewinded.

Good midnight, my baby beluga.

Today was not good. I cried today but I laugh so hard too today.
My baby beluga, I'm upset with everything around me now. It's like, life's unfair, for a moment.

My mind rewinded a bad memories and it hurted everytime it comes.

And Dont Ever Lie To Me, My Baby Beluga.


My baby beluga, I guess the rain would fall for a couple minutes. Let me hear you singing in the rain, let it out, let your emotions out.

No, dont cry, my baby beluga. I will never hurt you, I will never leave you. Come closer, baby beluga. Let me fix you.

I would hold you tight, my baby beluga. I would live with you underwater. I would die with you in the sea. I would sing with you every night. I would cry with you if you cant hold it anymore. I would make you feel so warm in this cold sea. You're mine, baby beluga. Just dont let go.

She Did.

Honestly, I dont know how to start this but.... Let my brain and hands do the writing.
You're just too good to be true. You're a good person. A very good man. You love me, and I love you. But why? You're so hard to reach?

I know you'll confuse. Why you're so hard to reach. Differences knock me down. We have, like, thousand dreams to reach and to share, but still, our dreams cant answer any of my questions. You're too far to reach, baby.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Spread Your Wings and Fly!

28/09/2010

Dear, Dennis Sapulete.
Thankyou for staying with me for almost 5 months.
Hari ini... Kita banyak share perasaan.
Dan kaya biasa, aku banyak nanya :p
I really love to share my feelings with you, dan aku ga ragu.
Karna kamu sangat dewasa dalam menjawab semua cerita2 aku :)

Aku seneng banget dengan cara kamu merlakuin aku.
Dan kamu bener2 bisa nunjukin ke aku kalo kamu sayang sama aku.
I really love it :)
Gimana gelisahnya kamu kalo aku ga angkat telefon dari kamu,
Gimana khawatirnya kamu kalo aku pulang sendiri,
Gimana pedulinya kamu kalo aku belom makan,
Gimana perhatiannya kamu kalo lagi ujan deres dan aku pulang sendiri,
Gimana protektifnya kamu kalo ada orang yang ganggu aku,
Gimana sayangnya kamu sama aku ampe ngebukain pintu mobil buat aku,
You're so sweet, like, I dont need any sugar in my tea :p lebe ah

Sorry, maybe this is embarrassing but...
Aku seneng kita tadi nangis bareng di mobil.
Terharu karena kita merasa dihargai satu sama lain,
Terharu karena kita sama2 makin sayang satu sama lain :)

Honestly,
I am so afraid if you're too far away from me.
Aku bakal kaget, biasanya aku sering ketemu sama kamu,
Dipelukin kamu kalo aku lagi sedih/badmood,
Bercanda2 ga jelas ampe ketawa2 ga jelas juga,
Dijemput kamu pulang kampus,
Ke rumah kamu ketemu mamah terus joget2 SuJu....
Terus tiba2 kamu engga ada,
Aku butuh dipeluk kamu cuma kamu ga bisa,
Butuh ketemu kamu karena kangen...
Nanti ujung2nya cuma bisa webcaman ato sms ato telfon............
Speechless.
The fear comes unexpectedly, and I'll be below zero.

Mungkin susah untuk berhari-hari untuk beradaptasi sama keadaan,
Cuma ini kan buat kebaikan kamu dan aku juga,
Jadi kalo kita ikhlas, sabar dan jalanin ini sama2, pasti kita bisa kan? :)

I always want to be one of your special person in your life.
And it happens! :D
Dont ask back, cause you're one of my special person in my life too :)
Thankyou, for being one of the best person in my life.
You are my hero!
And I always pray what's best for you :)

Aku cuma minta satu,
Jangan pernah berubah.
Tetaplah sama sifat kamu yang sekarang.
Kalo pun berubah, jadilah orang yg lebih baik, walopun kamu udah cukup baik sama aku dan orang lain :)

"Cause boy, you're amazing, just the way you are"

LOVE YOU! xxx

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

No Words Could Explain.



I'M HAPPY BECAUSE MY FAMILY LOVES YOU SO MUCH. MY MOM TREATS YOU LIKE HER OWN SON, MY DAD ASKS YOU A LOT OF QUESTIONS, AND MY BROTHER SAYS H
E IS SO COMFY WITH YOUR ATTITUDE.

THANKYOU GOD, FOR GIVING ME DENNIS ALBERT SAPULETE IN MY LIFE :)



Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Gladiator.

    Anol shalom
    Anol sheh lay konnud de ne um
    Flavum
    Nom de leesh
    Ham de nam um das...

    La um de
    Flavne
    We de ze zu bu
    We de sooo a ru
    Un va-a pesh a lay
    Un vi-i bee
    Un da la pech ni sa

    Un di-i lay na day
    Un ma la pech a nay mee di nu ku

    La la da pa da le na da na
    Ve va da pa da le na la dumda
    La la da pa da le na da na
    Ve va da pa da le na la dumda
    La la da pa da le na da na
    Ve va da pa da le na la dumda
    La la da pa da le na da na
    Ve va da pa da le na la dumda

    Anol shalom
    Anol sheh ley kon-nud de ne um
    Flavum
    Flavum
    M-ai shondol-lee
    Flavu Lof flesh lay
    Nof ne
    Nom de lis
    Ham de num um dass
    La um de
    Flavne
    Flay
    Shom de nomm
    Ma-lun des dwondi.
    Dwwoondi

    Alas sharum
    du koos
    Shaley koot-tum


    Almighty Freedom
    Almighty freer of the soul
    Be free
    Walk with me
    Through the golden fields
    So lovely
    Lovely

    We regret our sins, but...
    We sew our own fate and
    Under my face I remain feeble
    Under my face, I smile

    Dont understand? This song has a great meaning.

    Even alone/afraid
    Under my face I will be waiting

    Run with me now soldier of Rome
    Run and play in the field with the ponies
    Run with me now soldier of Rome
    Run and play in the field with the ponies
    Run with me now soldier of Rome
    Run and play in the field with the ponies
    Run with me now soldier of Rome
    Run and play in the field with the ponies

    Almighty Freedom
    Almighty freeer of the soul
    Be free
    Be free
    And imagine
    Free with peace at last
    It's lovely
    It's lovely, this land
    No one can believe or understand
    How far I came just for my lovely family
    I should have been there
    with them when the world crashed down
    But now they rest with me.

    I'll never forget
    How I felt that moment
    I became free.

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Maybe It's Supposed To Be This Way.



I remember my Grandfather's face before they buried him. He looked like almost smiling. And I slept beside his cold dead body with swollen eyes...


I remember that day, I just got home and my dad told me that he left us. I ran to my mom and cried, so did she. And the moment when I saw his body being moved out from the ambulance. It suffocated me and believe me, you will never, nor never can, say a single word. I almost fell that moment, but somebody held my arm, I dont remember who is it.

This is my first year, fasting without visiting him in a real life. I went to his grave today, and I realized that, it's been a year since you left us... You used to called Hanif (my brother) 'Boy' and served us with Teh Botol if we came to visit. You used to tell us your story when you spent your whole day hunting, whether it was a deer or a boar. And... Honestly, I love to see your medals and photos in your cupboard. Looks wow for me.

It was hard to not to cry in front of people, Grandpa. My mom cried for you, so did I. And I brought a red rose, hope you like it. Sorry we didnt waste a long time on your grave, ofcourse you dont want to see people cry for you, right?

Dear Grandfather. Rest in peace. And oh, happy fasting :) I miss you.

Sunday, August 1, 2010

Siren Song


Beginilah ketika mencintai seseorang terlalu dalam. Apapun yang dilakuin ga pernah lepas dari Dennis, selalu berhubungan sama Dennis.

Dennis, Dennis dan Dennis.

Semua orang punya hak buat mencintai orang lain. Badan ini kan badan kami, jadi ini otomatis ini juga jadi hak kami. Apa aku salah?

One of the greatest part is when I took a peek to my folder named Liberi un Fatali in my inbox. It was like, almost 3000 messages are waiting to read :) and believe it or not, I never get tired to read all of those.

And when we sang our anthem together! "KELONG, KELONG KELONG KELONG KELONG KELONG!" annoying like hell, because our voice turned out to be so damn loud with a high pitch voice. Yea, shoot us.

And when I listen to Pitbull's and I saw him. He made a move like... Uhuh. Well I cant describe, only when you see it then you'll understand ;) he made a sexy moves and I enjoyed it. That's the reason why I downloaded Pitbull - Juice Box to my iPod :p it fits him so much.

And when I felt so sleepy, and he told me to go to sleep. He made feel like I'm his cuddly teddy bear :) he always... Umm.. Okay what's the word... Well, 'empok2' (LOL) my ass until I fell asleep. He's a nice guy alive.

Too many stories I would like to share but I'll write it later :)

Dennis Albert Sapulete.
Kebanggaan dari kebanggaanku.
Kelebihan dari kelebihanku.
Kesayangan dari kesayanganku.
Love you Kelong boy!

Oh and...


Wednesday, July 28, 2010

We All Need A Reason Because We Have Chance To Stay.


Please don't cry, baby beluga.
You know, all God's creatures have chances to do something.
Let me hear your song.
Let me see your face.

Oh, don't cry, baby beluga.
Everything's gonna be okay.
Well, maybe at the moment.
Go swim the ocean freely.

Baby beluga,
You're the victim of authority.
I know,
We all need a reason because we have chance to stay.

And if your heart can't hold it any longer,
Then close your eyes, baby beluga, and imagine something beautiful.
Because your imagination is stronger than everything.

Close your eyes, baby beluga.
And dream.

Anakin, You Dont Have To Love Padme, Love Me.


“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intima
tely acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am Me, and I am Okay."

-Virginia Satir

Someday I'll forget the color of your eyes, the sound of your voice will be unfamiliar. Someday I'll forget that I once loved you, the feelings will have faded, someday I'll forget.


Sunday, July 25, 2010

I Need You Here, Always.


Beberapa orang bilang pas gw udah sama Dennis sekarang, gw berubah. Mereka bilang gw lebih bahagia dan punya sifat yang sama2 sarap kaya Dennis.


Jujur, saya, sangat bersyukur telah memiliki Dennis Albert Sapulete dalam hidup saya. Dennis adalah kelebihan saya, Dennis adalah mata pengganti saya, Dennis adalah pembela saya, Dennis adalah darah saya. Dan Dennis, adalah orang yang saya cintai.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Your Idot Kinda Life.


Dear Mr. Idiot,

I want you to go home.
What's on your mind, idiot?
What happened to you?
You're not the same person like I know you.
Why you did this to your mother?
Why you dare to do it?
Whatever happens, SHE'S YOUR MOTHER. Underline that.

You disappoint me so much.
Not only me, your friends and your family too.
If you reply, "You know nothing about them!" then you're one of the foolest person in the world.

You said that you love your mother more than everything.
You said that you will never let her cry.
For a days, your words turn into dust.
Grow up, idiot.

Kid, remember one thing.
If your mother didn't give birth,
YOU WILL NEVER FUCKING BORN.



Grow up, make your parent and your grandmother proud.

I Know You Love Purple.

Arzita Shafira.

Perempuan yang selalu menjadi sahabat baikku selama lebih dari 3 tahun.
Perempuan yang selalu mengisi kekosongan hidupku.
Perempuan yang selalu membelaiku dengan tangan lebutnya (LESBI ABIS)
Perempuan yang selalu menghiburku ketika aku sedih.
Perempuan yang selalu memberikan advice terbaik untukku.
Perempuan yang selalu memperhatikanku di setiap waktu.
Perempuan yang selalu menjadi setengah jiwaku.
Perempuan yang selalu menjadi jodohku (anjir anjir anjir HAHAHA)
Perempuan yang selalu menasihitaku disaat otakku kaku.
Perempuan yang selalu mengesmsku setiap hari.
Perempuan yang selalu menghiasi hariku.
Perempuan yang selalu memberikan lelucon2 tertai setiap hariku.
Perempuan yang selalu menjadi perempuan (?)

Siet, just wanna let you know, I swear I cant go on without you. You are my bestest friendm a super duper true friend of mine. I'll go crazy if you are not around.

Sya, I'm very glad to have a friend like you. I hope our relationship (EMUAHAHAH) will alway go on, because being your friend is one of the most happiest moment in my life.

I would cook a chicken with ketchup sauce for you everyday, even it tastes..... Funny. I would bring Skippie to your house... Even you hate it HAHA. I would your blue eyes of Hassassin, your Gisli Orn Gardasson for life.

I would be, your Jacob Black.

Thankyou, Arzita Shafira.
You've made my days :)

PS: sy buat ini pas sy lg mtg, tk

Saturday, July 3, 2010

On The Wing of Albatross.


Dear Dennis Albert Sapulete,
I’m writing this letter on behalf of myself, I’m proud of what you’ve done.
You’re going to be a pilot soon, just like your father.

I’m very proud of you. So proud. Extremely proud. Perjuangan kamu selama ini akhirnya ngebuahin hasil, iya ga? :)

Inget dimana aku baru bangun mau ke kampus kamu udah di tempat tes, dan betapa deg-degannya kamu saat itu. Dari mulai tes kesehatan, tes yang kata kamu paling susah, kamu bisa lewat. Alhamdullilah banget akhirnya kamu sekarang jadi part of BIFA :)

Friday, 2 July 2010
Someone called you. Dan jujur, pas aku liat cara kamu nanggepin orang di telfon itu, aku tau ini pasti orang BIFA. Aku sok2 liat buku kenangan kamu aja.. And when you ended up the call… Mukamu sumringah. You are part of BIFA now. You passed all of the tests. Dan bertepatan sama ulangtaun papah dan ulangtaun pernikahan ke 30 orangtua kamu. What a wonderful present for your dad and your mom :)

Dan pas di jalan pulang, we had a little conversation which makes you gave me your never-ending-smile. Betapa bangganya aku sama kamu, I’m impressed. It was a perfect day between you and your life, family, friends and me :)

Kamu bilang, pilot itu cita2 kamu dari kecil. Rata2, orang2 pada bilang kalo anak kecil makin gede cita2nya pasti berubah, tapi tidak buat kamu. Kamu pegang cita2 kamu hingga kamu dewasa hingga akhirnya cita2 kamu udah 50% kecapai. And for the first step, kamu udah keterima di BIFA.

Dan apa yang aku pikirin? Jarang ada anak kecil yang masa kecilnya kaya kamu, dari kecil sampe gede aja kamu bisa berpegang kuat sama pendirian kamu tanpa kehasut orang lain dan kamu usaha keras banget buat mencapai itu. Dan, kamu udah bisa nunjukin kedewasaan kamu dari kamu kecil :) That makes you one of kind J I think I’m one of the luckiest person in the world :)


Kamu bilang orang2 ngeliat kamu sebelah mata (mungkin karena kamu ga sekolah, cengengesan dan selengean juga) but now, what will they say? They’ll respect you. HELLO CAPTAIN! HOW’S EVERYTHING? Bangga ga sih? Calon kaptenku? :D

Sekarang, aku Cuma bisa doa terus buat kamu. Ngedoain kamu supaya sukses dan lancar2 aja selama kamu belajar. You are one step closer to your dream, dearest :) you will conquer the air! And I’m happy for you :)

Btw, I’m listening to Chris Brown – Crawl. The song has a great meaning, here's the lyric:

“If we crawl, until we can walk again, and we’ll run, until we’re strong enough to jump, then we’ll fly, until there is no end…”

Liriknya bagus banget… Dan aku ngartiin bagian ini mungkin beda sama yang laen, dan apa yang aku dapet dari lirik ini adalah, kita coba dari bawah, dari mulai kita ga bisa apa2, dan untuk bisa apa2 kita harus belajar, tinggi, makin tinggi dan kita bisa capai apa yang kita mau, until there’s no end for that :)

Dear Captain Sapulete Jr.,
If only for one moment, the air had shared with you all it knows,
The air wouldn’t be a mystery.

I will find you, my darling,
I will hold you close, my melody,
And sing the song of the air with you.

..Reach your dreams, be proud of yourself.

btw nanti ga begini ya? zz

Still waiting that day, where you knock my door and says, “Honey, I’m home!” and I open the door and see you with uniform. And I say, “Hello Capt, welcome home” :)

I love you, Dennis.

Yours sincerely,

Yours.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Life's But A Walking Shadow, A Poor Player...

Saturday, 12/06/2010

Dear mother,
I want you to know how it feels to be your daughter for almost 15 years.
Dear father,
I want you to know that I’m 18 going on 19.
Dear brother,
I want you to know that I’m so jealous with your life.
Dear grandmother,
I want you to know that I love you and disappoint you.
Dear grandfather.
I want you to know that I love you and you have disappointed me.
Dear bestfriends,
I want you guys, to know, that I love you so much.
Dear lover,
I want you to know that I would give you the best.

It’s not easy. Life is cruel.

I’ve been sitting in front of the monitor for almost 4 hours, listening to Aerosmith – Crazy, The Chemical Brothers – Hold Tight London etc. The weather knows my feelings so well. I’m cold and I need a hug.

Dear God,
I don’t want to grow up. I swear, I don’t want to grow up. I want to stay as a girl, not a woman. I want my childhood back, where I was talking to myself while playing Barbie all day long. Where me and my family used to go to Puncak on the weekend.

I remember when I was a child, my dad recorded me a video when we were in Safari Park. We used to go there every weekend, just to show me animals and teach me how to love them. Can I get this part back? It was lovely.

And I remember when I was in the Kindergarten, my grandma used to come and pick me up. And my teacher asked, “Is that your auntie?” because my grandma looks so young and pretty. Yes, she is.

And I wonder, 10 years from now… No, 15 years from now… I’m at home, and there’s a photo album on my lap….. And I open it, and see a picture of my mother, father, grandmother, grandfather…………………….. Smiling.

By a strange coincidence, my playlist is playing Yiruma – The River Flows In You. Heart beating fast, tears running down my face, my mouth opens, wishing I could say a word. Still, calmly sitting in front of the monitor.

Dear God,
I don’t want to lose them! I’m afraid to grow old! It’s not about my skin, my face or else, no! I don’t want to lose my mother! My father! My grandmother! My bestfriends! My lover! I don’t want to lose them! I’m afraid that someday in the future I will reach alone! This year I almost lost my grandmother and I’m not ready! I AM NOT FUCKING READY FOR ANY OF THESE!


Dear God,
If I am strong enough to know your secret about my life…
Could I help you, or ask you, to arrange my life?
Or do my life over?

Friday, June 4, 2010

Jealous, Much?


Know what, I am so jealous with her.
YOU DRIVE HER INSANE.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

Dear Captain, I Can See Those Dolphins Jumping Beautifuly.


Tuhan selalu menciptakan manusia berbeda-beda. Beda prinsip, beda mimpi dan beda sifat. Dan aku yakin, dibalik itu semua, Tuhan punya rencana. Rencana yang para malaikat-Nya pun tak tahu.

Dan aku yakin, Tuhan mempertemukan aku dengan dia pun pasti ada maksud dibalik itu. Tuhan ingin aku membuatnya bahagia, Tuhan ingin aku menjaganya, Tuhan ingin aku mengontrol emosinya. Tuhan ingin aku membuatnya menjadi lebih baik.

Tapi, ada satu perbedaan diantara kita berdua yang kita pun ngga bisa terima itu. Ngga akan aku sebutkan perbedaan apa itu, yang jelas perbedaan itu kadang membuatku sakit hati. Kita memiliki jalan yang berbeda.

Tuhan membuatku jatuh padamu. Tuhan mempercayakan aku padamu. Apa arti dari rencana Tuhan kali ini? Ketika aku mendapat seseorang yang memiliki sifat yang benar-benar membuatku jatuh padanya, ketika aku mendapat pendamping yang sangat istimewa, yang membuat bias lebih dari nyaman……… Kenapa perbedaan itu selalu ada dan kami mungkin tidak akan bisa bersama?

Mencintai seseorang meskipun memiliki sejuta perbedaan, tidak akan memberhentikan jalanku. Air mata mungkin tidak akan berhenti mengalir, tapi untuk sisa waktu yang tersisa, aku akan tetap jalani apa yang akan kulakukan. Karena kupikir, detik-detik bersamamu adalah sebuah hadiah yang istimewa.

Mencintai seseorang, bukan berarti harus memiliki orang itu. Hanya dengan mengetahui bahwa aku sayang sama kamu dan kamu sayang sama aku, itu lebih dari cukup.

Salah jika orang bilang aku mencintai orang bukan pada tempatnya, bukan pada waktunya. Karena perasaan ini bisa datang kapan saja dan pada siapa saja. Aku tidak akan memperdulikan kata orang, aku akan terus dengan jalanku dan pikiranku.

Aku berhenti menulis sebentar. Perasaan tidak bisa berbohong. Menangis untuk membela diri, menangis untuk mengatakan pada otak bahwa apa yang kulakukan benar. Menangis sambil bertanya dalam hati, "Mengapa semua ini terjadi?". Menangis untuk orang lain, buatku itu adalah pengorbanan.

Air mata harus dibalas dengan senyuman, dengan ketabahan hati. Tarikan nafas berulang kali kulakukan. "Aku sanggup menjalani semuanya walau sakit". Kedewasaanku harus keluar. Apapun jalan yang kuambil, aku harus terima resikonya. Dan senyum pun merekah.

To love someone, is to love everything.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Piano And Acoustic Guitar Will Confess


Oh wait, Mr. Lovely
I will never be leaving you.

Monday, May 24, 2010

Deep Logic Feels Like Deep Throat Sometimes.


Once a night, my friend, Erpot, gave a very good question.
Pertanyaan ini juga gw tanyain sama beberapa orang temen2 gw,
Dan 80% dari mereka ngasih jawaban yang sama dengan alesan yg sama.
Dan berikut pertanyaannya.

"Suatu hari lo di mobil sama pacar dan sahabat lo. Lo pacaran udah setaun, dan lo sama sahabat lo ini udah sahabatan dari kecil. Dan lo kecelakaan dan lo selamet, dan lo punya kesempatan buat nyelametin salah satu orang di mobil lo. HANYA SATU ORANG, underline that. Pilih selametin yg mana? Pacar ato sahabat?"

80% orang yang gw tanya pertanyaan ini, ngejawab sahabat, dengan alesan yg kebanyakan, sahabat ga bisa dicari tp pacar bisa dicari.

Tapi beda sama gw. Buat gw, gw lebih milih PACAR.
Kenapa?
Gw punya 3 alesan, dan alesan ini gw jawab langsung dengan logika dan saat itu juga dengan amat sangat mantap ohohohoh.

1. Mulut orang zaman sekarang, kasar. Apa kata orang kalo mereka ngeliat lo nyelametin sahabat lo duluan daripada pacar lo? Jelas jadi bahan omongan banget. Karena yang mereka tau, di mobil itu, lo lagi sama pacar lo dan TEMEN lo, siapa yang tau kalo di mobil itu sahabat lo? Contoh, lo ngenalin pacar lo ke semua orang kaya, "Kenalin, cewe/cowo gw" dan pernah ga lo ngenalin sahabat lo dengan "Kenalin, sahabat gw" yang ada pasti "Kenalin, temen gw". Dan, karena mulut orang2 zaman sekarang jahat, lo bakal jadi bahan omongan orang2 dan itu ngaruh bgt buat lo karena itu termasuk pencemaran nama baik. Mungkin hal ini bukan masalah gede buat tipe orang yang cuek ato punya prinsip "I dont live to please them, I live for myself" tapi tetep aja, diomongin dibelakang itu ga enak :)

2. Kita sedang dalam keadaan normal dan ga lagi kecelakaan, jelas otak kita dipacu buat mikir lebih penting mana. Tapi kalo lo lagi kecelakaan, apa lo bisa mikir panjang untuk nentuin lo harus nyelametin siapa? Engga. Kita bisa bilang sahabat karena otak kita disuruh berpikir dan dalam keadaan normal, tapi kalo udah kejadian? Kebanyakan orang reflek akan nyelametin pacar mereka ketimbang sahabat mereka.

3. Apa ketika sahabat lo masuk rumah sakit, lo bakal jengukin tiap hari? Belom tentu. Sedangkan kalo pacar lo masuk rumah sakit, apa lo jengukin tiap hari? Iya, ini bener.

Itu adalah 3 alesan pribadi gw kenapa gw lebih milih PACAR dari sahabat. Bukannya gimana, tapi gw nyoba buat gunain logika gw. Bukan maksudnya buat gw sahabat itu ga penting... Mereka penting, tapi disaat keadaan darurat, ada saatnya kita lebih ke pacar kita karena kita selalu kontak sama pacar kita tiap hari, dan sedangkan sama sahabat kita? Belom tentu tiap hari.

I love my bestfriends.
I love my boyfriend.
It's all the same.
Mereka sama2 penting.
Tapi ada kalanya pikiran kita yang menentukan lain :)

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

....And She Said


I want you,
To stay beside me all day long.
I want you,
To feel me in your arms.
I want you,
To know that the most beautiful view is the one I share with you.
I want you,
To know that I always there for you.
I want you,
To see how much I need you.
I want you,
To wipe away my tears when I am crying.
I want you,
To touch my cheeks when I am sad.
I want you,
To let my arms wrap your body when you are down.
I want you,
To know that I always pray what is best for you.
I want you,
To answer my phone call just to say hello.
I want you,
To open you arms very wide when I run to you.
I want you,
To sing a long with me.
I want you,
To see me doing Tango seriously.
I want you,
To look through my eyes fondly and smile.
I want you,
To sit beside me until the night comes up.
I want you,
To watch the city lights with me until the morning comes.
I want you,
To be the best pilot that I have ever known.
I want you,
To reach your dreams.
i want you,
To be the best.
And last, but not least,
I want you...
To see me saying 'I love you' with tears.


Make it more than words.
I love you, Captain Dennis Albert Sapulete :)

Monday, March 8, 2010

30 Seconds To 4 Years Ago

Perasaan baru hari Sabtu kemaren ngumpul sama anak2... Tapi kenapa udah kangen aja ya? Kangen suasananya, ketawa2nya.... Oh God :(

Salah satu faktor yang kerasa banget; mungkin gw udah lama ga ngumpul sama anak2. Gw jarang ketemu sama anak2, mungkin. Kaya anak2 pada ke Bali 2009 kemaren juga gw kan ga ikut. Padahal gw yakin bisa mati ketawa kalo ikut ke Bali :)

Dan faktor yang paling ngena; Aska mau ke Bali. FYI, Askandari Nakagawa Notodihardjo is one of my bestest friends i have ever had. Orangnya sekut banget, baik banget dan sepenanggungan sama gw. Orang yang paling enak buat cerita yang 'engga2'. Haha. Cosmo Girl, muntah darah? Cuma dia yang ngerti ;p

Dan, akhir Maret ini, dia bakal berangkat ke Jepang. Mungkin gw bakal kaget, soalnya gw ga bisa maen ke rumah dia lagi. Keterangan rumah dia, udah gw jelasin di post yang di bawah :)

Kalo misalnya anak2 pergi jalan2 lagi tanpa dia, kemana kita mau nginep? Mau gila2an? Mau ngebul dan mabuy2? Bingung kan? Gw bener2 harus siap. Ngerti banget rasanya ditinggal sahabat pergi keluar negeri dan balik beberapa tahun sekali, contohnya, Funi. Dan sekarang, gw nyesel ga ketemu dia selama dia disini.

Dan pas nulis post ini, gw baru sadar. Gw kangen sama suasana hari Sabtu kemaren karena GW KANGEN TEMEN2 GILA GW YANG DULU.

Ari, Daici, Benj, Shido, Dida, Lutvi, Rifraf, Gore, Vivi, Ales, Putra, Dio. Terutama Ari, Rifraf, Gore, Daici.

Kemana kalian sekarang? Acin kangen loooh..... :) Take care guys! Kalian semua harus sukses!

Inget dulu pas ke Fishing Valley, si Daici geli banget ngeliat ikan lele segede paha gw -_____- ampe balik2 ketemu kita2 ampe lompat2 nyengir terus dikomenin sama Ari, "Mukelu kaya abis merkosa gurame". Terus, kan disana ada bumper boat, kita pada naek kan (ya walopun agak maksa karena buat anak kecil) dan ketawa2 bareng. Cuma Dida yang ga berani naik. Pertama dia blg 'childish banget sih lo semua' (maklum gw paling muda sendiri, yang laen 2 taun diatas gw) dan ternyata dulu dia pas naik bumper boat pernah kecebur -.-

Pas ke Puncak juga. Waktu itu ada Daici Rifraf Lutvi Putra sama gw, berlima aja. Si Daici, Rifraf sama Lutvi pergi nyari jagung bakar sejam ga balik dan Putra ngomong sambil ngelus2 brewoknya, "Lagi ke Hotel di bawah kali, cari tempat buat berhubungan".

Pas ke Bandung. Gw Rere sama Shido maen UNO, si Rere saking ga mau kalahnya ampe dipelototin tuh kartunye ampe matanya beraer. Trs waktu itu mau ke 18 Park, si Benje nyari temennya, dan gw dgn santainya bilang, "itu bukan Nje, yang item kaya gorilla Jawa, yang gimbal", maksud gw bercanda, dan Benje ngebales, "oh itu dia". Gulp. Pas ke Tangkuban Perahu, si Dida belagu banget naik kuda. Shido bilang, "Gw tepok aja ya pantat kudanya? Biar lari terus nyebur kawah" BABIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII GA KEBAYANG!!!

Sama pas di rumah Ari, Rifraf kan bawa amer, nah temen gw kan, Deza, bawa adenya yang masih SD kls 3 kalo ga salah waktu itu, nanya ke kakaknya. "Bang, ini sirop ya? Mau dong", dan dengan tololnya Shido nyaut, "bukan, ini air kencing buat kesehatan".

Kejadian itu semua udah lama banget, sekitar 4 taun yang lalu. Makanya, gara2 jalan2 ke Bogor kemaren juga sama temen2 terdeket gw, siapa yang ga seneng?

FRIENDS ARE EVERYTHING, I LOVE YOU GUYS :)

Sunday, March 7, 2010

The Gang Bang

Saturday, 6 March 2010

Hari ini rencana
nginep di rumah Aska. Jam 3 berangkat dari rumah dianter Anip. Di jalan, kaset adapter mobil rusak, jadi ke Giant dulu beli. Udah beli, ga bisa dipake, jadi balik lagi ke Giant padahal udah setengah jalan ke rumah Aska. Selesai, dianterin ke rumah Aska. Di rumah Aska, ada Putri. Ga lama, Miki dateng, Sasit dateng. Sasit tapi pergi sebentar nganterin Putri pulang. Terus ngobrol2 deh di rumah Aska mau kemana.

Miki: PUNCAK AJALAH!

Seru banget tuh kayanya ;) nah, Sasit dateng, Tina dateng, Edi dateng, terus diomongin lagi kan jadinya enaknya kemana. Pilihan ada Puncak, Bogor, Muara Karang sama Ragusa. Dan akhirnya ditetepin ke Bogor. Dirga paling terakhir dateng, dan akhirnya kita berangcuts ke Bogor. 3 mobil, mobil Miki, mobil Tina (awas janda cantik) sama mobil Dirga.

Pertama, mobil Miki mau ke Pertok, mobil Tina mau isi bensin dan hasi
lnya mobil Dirga nunggu depan Citos. Ngeri banget, setiap bis ato truk lewat, mobilnya goyang -.-

Terus kita berenti di pom bensin, Dirga isi bensin se
kalian cari ATM. Ngobrol2 sebentar disitu, berangcuts lagi dan nyampe ke Bogor. Disitu, gw sms anak2 buat dengerin 97.1 FM; Radio Dangdut TPI. Akhirnya dangdutan kan di mobil Dirga, ampe Dirga pusing -.- dan kirim sms ke radio itu.

"Salam kecup manis dari
Anissa dan Dirga yang selalu setia dengerin Dangdut TPI! Request lagu dangdut yang hot dong",...........itu isi sms yg gw kirim.

Terus cari2 tempat, akhirnya berenti di De Koffie-Pot. Cafe gelap remang2 asik tempat Edi tinggal. Baru duduk setengah jam kali dsitu, eh cafenya duah mau tutup zz langsung cabs ke Bonex 69 eaaaa makan Seafood. Dan gw inget banget Miki ngomong MAKAN DULU SEBELOM BERDOA dan Edi ngomong ES TEH MANIS HARUS PAKE ES, KALO GA JADI ES TEH MANI DONG, JOROK.

Akh
irnya selesai makan, balik pulang ke rumah Aska. Di jalan, sempet ada kejadian ngeri. Dirga lagi ngebut sekitar 160an, trs ada Avanza ngasih lampu, Dirga minggir ke kiri, Avanza ngebut, Dirga ambil kanan lagi, nah pas lagi ngebut sekita 170an, Avanza ngambil kiri, dan tiba2 kaya karpet cokelat segede kap mobil kelempar ke mobil Dirga. Anjritttt gw kaget jantung rasanya kaya dikelitikin, mana Dirga sempet banting setir ke kiri, ngeri abis gw pikir KAP MESIN. Akhirnya berenti bentar ke kiri biar karpet gila itu jatoh terus jalan lagi. Hasilnya, mulut gw gemeteran.

hasil belajar gila si Dirga. Masih mending segini..........................

Iyak akhirnya sampai dengan selamet di rumah Aska. Ngobrol2 trs nonton The Hangover sambil nungguin Dyne. Tina sempet tidur tuh. Ngobrol terus ampe pagi, Dirga mau pulang juga ga bisa, kuncinya diumpetin. Dyne dateng sama seorang lelaki bernama Lucky (eaa). Dan Dyne sama Sasit tidur duluan. Akhirnya sekitar jam 5an, Dirga pulang, disusul sama Edi sama Miki balik jam 6an. Akhirnya gw sama Tina tidur. Aska juga tidur di bawah.

What a night. Rasanya seneng ban
get kumpul2 bareng sahabat2 yang udah lama ga kumpul bareng. Mana Aska akhir bulang mau cabs ke Jepang, wah makin kurang orang buat kumpul2.

Dan satu yang gw sadarin dari cerit
a diatas, WE'LL BE MISSING ASKA SO MUCH.

WHY?

Rumah Aska adalah rumah ter pewe buat nginep ato nongkrong. Rumah Aska udah kaya basecamp orang2. Rumah Aska berkabut bikin mata perih. Dan kalo Aska pergi ke Jepang, kita ga bisa lagi maen kesitu. Mana Aska orang asik, makanan rumahnya enak2 dan kamarnya tuh WOHOHOOWHOWOW pewe banget.

What do you think guys? Gw dengan jujur bilang, kalo ya, gw bakal kehilangan Aska bange
t2. Sahabat sejalan banget si Aska. Mami yang baik dan pekerja s**s yang hebat. Gw yakin, gw bakal nangis ampe mampus pas dia pergi.

WE LOVE YOU ASKANDARI NAKAGAWA :)
PS: Kirimin bluefilm lo ya Azuka Nakagawa xxx! Jangan lupa! Emmmmmm...Preww!

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