Sunday, January 14, 2018

London.

There's this boy,
So pure, so gentle,
A boy named London,
A happy boy, a lovely boy.

London is so beautiful.
I would hold him close for days.
We hold hands and cherish the moment.
We are forever.

Oh yes, we drink too much.
We smoke too much, stay up too late, laugh a lot.
We talk too much,
But we hate too often.

We drive too fast.
We look up to each other,
We spend more,
But enjoy less.

We've been all the way to the moon and back.
We have trouble crossing the good side of our minds.
We conquered outer space, not inner space,
And we've done larger things, but not better things.

There are so my things I want to say to you, my dear London.
But I can't.
I just can't.
I'm sorry.

One night,
You looked at me,
And wished that I could say anything about us.
But I refused.

A few days ago,
You gave me that look.
Still, I refused to say a word.
I'm really sorry.

London,
I just want to spend some time with you.
You're not going to be around forever,
You'll leave.

Now, start counting.
How many misunderstandings we have passed?
How many love we have shared?
How eager you are to kill me?

All I could say is,
There is nowhere else.
I'm there, in your veins, in your blood,
I become every part of you.

The most painful thing is,
Someone calls,
He said he needs your blood,
Then you go for a blood transfusion procedure.

"What's mine is mine,"
I know your answer,
And I can't reply it.
I can't hold it any longer.

London, listen to me.
Thank you for being honest.
Stay true to your principles.
Live passionately, fully, and well.

It's time for you to experience new things.
I won't wait, but I'll be there.
I won't leave you.
Love and be loved, if have that chance.

Monday, January 1, 2018

Miracle Aligner.


He's that kinda guy who doesn't want to make eye contact.
An introvert one, but not a loner.
A leader, a true story teller,
And his name is Miracle Aligner.

And there's this girl,
A quirky one, a lighthearted person,
She sees the world from a different perspective,
And her name is Tiger.

Miracle Aligner could get anything he needs.
Miracle Aligner has a strong vision about himself.
No, Tiger is not jealous.
It's just, she has so many questions in her head.

Miracle Aligner wasn't born to blow her mind.
Miracle Aligner won't make her dream come true.
Miracle Aligner is a wolf, he lives in the woods.
He's a hunter, and sometimes be hunted.

"A black wolf," she said. "Is a vulnerable wolf." 
Silent and starving,
Miracle Aligner chose his own path,
But still, he doesn't know what he wants.

And he doesn't know what to do either.
In search of happy days he knows he'll never find,
He stays in his comfort zone for too long,
And he wonders, if some part of him knew about it.

Come on,
His name is Miracle Aligner.
The great enemy of freedom is the alignment of what you've been thinking and worrying.
It could destroy your beliefs.

Let your existence be your book.
This is not about your identity,
But for the love inside your soul,
And for the eternity of a miracle, just like your name.

Saturday, December 16, 2017

Eloquence.

So intense,
The way you make me feel,
The way my heart breaks into pieces,
The love you took away, the way I mourn.

I'm confuse.
Should I say something?
Is this what I've been waiting for?
The hesitations, the lack of time?

My heart beats faster than before,
I become awkward,
Questioning everything,
Did I make a right choice?

We need to go.
To the place where you dreamed of me before,
We'll follow voices,
We'll go back to each other.

Listen,
The sky is humming,
And it's your favorite song,
That soon will be mine.

I won't ask you to change.
I won't ask you to run away.
Just give me a clue,
And I'll determine it for you.

Youth.

Maybe you don't believe.
Maybe you won't believe.
But it's real,
And I'm waiting.

You're in love,
Then you are the lucky one.
Because most of us are bitter over someone,
And I am one of them.

Maybe,
I live only to realize that reality will kill me before I get there.
The heartbreaks from fallen relationships,
Strips away my romance, my love,
My hope, my trust. 

It's cheesy,
But it's true.
You still have room for emotions,
You have her, you have him.

It's a reckless living,
And it's far more dangerous than you ever realize.
I only have one life, one body,
And I should take a good care of it.

You're breaking me.
You broke my chest once,
You held my hand once,
What do I have to regret?

This is us,
Our minds, our hearts,
Common sense and all,
Flickering, trembling.

"I need you," you said.
"I need you," I replied.
Give us help.
Give us another chance.

Saturday, November 4, 2017

Jupiter.


There's a lighthouse I used to know back in my hometown.
Though it can only cast light into the darkness,
But I love that place.
I miss that place.

I went there one day,
And draw a lot of pictures.
I left some drawings,
Then I went home.

It took months until my memories fade.
Even my most precious ones fade surprisingly quickly.
It changed course,
And went nowhere.

My memory is a monster.
I forget, but it doesn't.
It's like, I've been hiding something for years.
I think I have it, but it has me.

I thought I'm an outsider,
By recalling these memories. 
In my personal store of dreams,
Those are an expression that was lost.

I realized,
That someone wants to keep me alive.
He told me to keep on learning,
To make sure that my path is right.

But what if I choose to forget?
What if, Osaka has the most beautiful sunrise?
What if, Hallstatt is no longer a village, but a city?
What if, for now I am winter?

People come and go,
And I don't believe it when they are in love with someone.
Love comes and go,
Feeling changes unexpectedly.

Can I be the reason why the possibility of remembering has been found?
Can I be the reason that you are exist, because I remember you?
Can I erase all that has happened today?
Am I living in the dream?

Anomaly.


I don't know how I could travel through time.
I don't know how I could know what's going on in someone else's mind.
I don't know how to walk away from things I don't love any longer.
I know nothing about it.

If I know how,
It'll come out clearly enough.
I want to rephrase the world in my head,
To make you understand.

Am I trying to disappear?
Do I look like a winner?
Did it hurt?
Moron.

I want to let it out from my system.
I've been avoiding it for years.
Being in touch with the real terribleness of your life,
It's just disgusting.

It's like, I'm reading the same page for a hundred times.
My feelings are fighting,
My mind is falling randomly,
And my hands are shaking.

Honestly,
I don't want to know.
I don't want to know how.
I don't want to know why.

 I know that,
There was no shame in admitting that I didn't have the answer.
Guess it'll be fine.
I will let go.

There will be turbulence,
And memories will keep me alive.
There will be time,
And you will understand the way I think about everything.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Aragón, Are You Listening?


Hey, you,
I've been watching you.
I've been listening to the sound of your heart,
It changed.

Don't just sit there and wonder,
What the hell are you looking for?
This is yours to play,
Not mine to touch.

Don't scream in silence like that.
I hear you.
All you gotta do is ask,
And I will help you.

You have nowhere to run.
I knew it.
You want to hide your face.
Oh, I knew it.

Come to me,
Come with me,
You don't need to hold my hand,
Just look at me.

I know you have a lot of questions.
Ask me everything. 
Don't hold anything back.
I'm here.

Now, think.
If you think it's right, go for it.
Now,
What you do you want?

Sunday, October 22, 2017

Cosmos.

Here I am,
Wandering,
Shaking,
Flying above and beyond.

I know you'll stay.
I know you'll never leave.
But it hurts me,
To think that we only have forever here and now.

It has been years,
When you laid your eyes on me,
When you said that I am the love you need,
The one who got away.

But no,
I'm here for him.
And no, it doesn't mean that I'm going to leave you.
I don't want you to go.

It's just,
This boy is special.
He's always looking at something beyond me.
He can never see me.

So why are you here, you asked.
I'm here to help him,
To help you,
To love you.

You come with me, you said.
I know I don't know where I want to go.
My legs can't carry me somewhere I want to be.
But my eyes keep moving, through the distance.

The sky is clear,
I can see the moon from here.
I can see you,
I can see us.

Maybe I should leave.
Maybe I should walk to the far end of my mind.
Maybe I need some time,
Maybe I don't need one.

No, I can't remember when I fell in love with you naturally.
It's delusional.
But I will carve my name in your veins,
And live a trace of myself behind this world.

Saturday, October 21, 2017

Laguna.

Crystal clear water,
In the woods,
The heart only needs one,
Peace.

This is where life lives and breathes.
My reflection shows it all,
The pain,
The anger.

I have the key.
I locked myself out of everything.
Swollen eyes, tiny fractures,
My heart is bruised.

I spent too much on other things.
I didn't pay attention,
I can't see where it went wrong,
It wasn't based on an expectation I had of others.

The wind blows,
It's not a symbol for emotions.
It's an inevitable,
When our hearts that have never met before come into collision.

I'm here,
Drowned in still waters,
In silence,
Still beating, still fighting.

Saturday, September 9, 2017

Don't Fall in Love with Me.


I love to stay up late at night.
I love to watch the clouds move in silence.
I love to feel the summer air.
I love feel the ocean breeze.

I love to sing in the middle of the night.
I believe that when I die,
I will turn into a song,
That people will hear and remember.

I love to blend with nature.
I breathe with them,
I sleep with them.
I share my life with them.

I love people.
I love to listen to their stories.
See them cry, laugh,
And walk with them.

I love animals.
I represent them,
I am their voice,
Because animals are a gentle living beings.

I am a dreamer.
I know so little of real life.
I love to live in my dreams,
Because it won't fail me.

So don't fall in love with me.
I don't have what you want,
I don't have time,
I won't think about you.

Just don't fall in love with me.
I won't tell you what the word "home" means to me.
I won't tell you about every person I've ever been in love with.
I won't tell you the first time I felt the weight of hate.

I don't know if anger is a sincere emotion,
Or just a fragile heart trying to scream.
I don't want to know what will happen next,
And I don't want to know whether it is wrong or right.

Fall in love with someone else.
My heart belongs to the sky, to the sea.
My mind belongs to those bodies that have lost their lives and minds.
I belong to me, so are you.

XO.

Him
01:12, Bergen, Norway

She's weak.
Very weak.
I want to help her.
Oh please, just let me be.

She wanted this world to still.
She wanted to be fixed within it.
But everything was on the move,
The clouds, the wind, and people.

I love it when she sings,
When she looks to the sky and smiles,
When she plays her favorite guitar,
She's just something.

But I can't see her sadness.
I can't stand it.
Something's disappear,
And she lost everything.

She's afraid.
I can see it.
Her eyes show everything.
Her fear, her future.

That's how it is.
No matter how hard I try,
I'm not going to be able to control my feelings for her.
I can't help loving her.

She makes me fall in love with her,
In just one glance,
In one second,
She changed my perspective.

I want to help her.
I want to glue those fractures back together.
I want to make her stronger.
I want her to forget.

Sadino,
I know I can't promise you things,
But keep my words,
That I will try to fix you.

Monday, September 4, 2017

Your Name.


I wish I could forget everything.
I wish I could go far away from here.
I wish I could erase everything.
Yes, I'm wishing for something that would never happen.

I wish I could forget your name.
A name, which show me a fond collection of some lovely places,
A name that I won't throw around lightheartedly,
A name that I won't repeat without deep thought.

Somehow, your name becomes sacred to my lips.
No, it's forbidden.
And if I ever speak of you,
Then it's just my subconscious.

Let me find a room to settle.
Let me find a hollow places to root.
Things happened, so precious and strange,
And I wouldn't remember it even in my dreams.

I wouldn't recall it after either.
Every stitch, every touch, every glance,
I'll bury them,
And never wake them up.

Give me time to fix my broken strings.
Now, listen to me.
You are nameless,
And be happy for it.

Saturday, August 26, 2017

The Paradox.


Been wandering alone for days,
Searching for something,
Alone,
And crying out for companionship that never comes.

We might have been thinking about it the wrong way.
You know what?
This beauty hides a lethal weapon,
Not to kill, but to survive.

Paper planes and white flags,
Are we going down?
The sea is no longer my shelter,
It holds memories we can't replace.

Such a view,
The bright side of the moon.
Should I live there?
I'll ask you later.

My mind has a speed limit,
No, you can't change it.
You're the one who left, right?
That was great, that kind of magic.

My vision is doomed.
But I have another system,
In fact that I am not even sure if it will come to a firm,
Or defined end.

Fuck you.
Let me in.
I am your anger.
I am yours.

Saturday, July 29, 2017

Anchor.

We're not supposed to be here.
I'm not the one holding you hostage.
We're not supposed to know each other,
We're not supposed to be lovers.

I'm a wounded woman.
Oh, you don't have to know.
Can you hear my fake heartbeat?
I'm sure you don't.

Picture a person you have forgotten.
How did you do that?
It was miserable, isn't it?
But you had to.

I lost my feeling,
Between the stars,
Behind those bars,
Alone, and not ready.

Maybe we said some things we couldn't handle.
Maybe we were right.
Maybe our tears came along the way.
Maybe we fell into a life of leisure.

We'll run.
When we try to reconnect,
When we stand there a little longer,
When we learn to fear each other.

Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Be Still with Me.


I will never be the same person, again.
I will never look at you that way,
I will never turn back time,
And I will never hold you like I always used to.

I should have realized,
Once I lose someone,
It's never exactly the same person who comes back.
It's just the shadow.

I lost someone,
I bet you did.
It was terrible, wasn't it?
It hurts, until now.

And this person won't come back.
He will never come back.
He will never sleep in my arms again,
He will never look at me the way he did back then.

I've tried, believe me.
It's just, things changed so fast,
And I couldn't keep up with it.
I couldn't reach him who walks beyond the clouds.

He keeps running,
Faster, away from me.
I cannot see him,
His colors are fading away.

I'm a human.
My feeling is untamed.
My dreams are broken, falling into pieces,
And our time is running out.

I'm sorry.
I am so sorry, Guadalajara.
I wish I could have more time.
I wish I could treat you better.

Inside my head,
In my endless thought,
I see you, walking hand in hand with me,
And then you left.

Maybe you're right.
Following your ego is the only option.
You said you don't know what you really want,
And you're trying to find out, and that's good.

I've been sleeping for three years,
And now I'm up,
Searching for something priceless,
That I thought it was you.

I will grieve this moment forever.
In sickness, in health,
I will miss you,
Like I always do.

If you're not ready to move out from our imagination,
My arms are here, wide open, for you.
If you come to me, years after this,
 I hope I could smile and said,

"Be still with me."

Friday, May 26, 2017

Fractures.


She expected the pain, when it came.
But it was not like she had felt before.
She smiled,
And the pain became warmth.

She let it live,
The pain, inside her body.
She made it light,
Very light.

Then,
Her blood stops running.
But she managed to shut the lid tight,
She was okay.

She brings life to eternity.
She's running full of speed at it.
But she's desperate for a change,
She's screaming in silence for what she wants.

She's young enough to break.
To kill, to burn.
But she stands tall,
No one can beat her.

She's alive and he knows it.
She's not happy, and he knows it.
He gave him sorrow, and she's fine with it.
She's unbreakable, yet unbelievable.