Tuesday, April 25, 2017

So Long, Gavrielle.


There were times over the years when life wasn't easy.
A day full of dread,
Love lost, fifty hours of tears and torture,
It happened.

I looked up to the sky one day,
I was trying to find my home,
Afraid, and standing still,
For you my home in the light.

I was wrong, so wrong.
I lost you.
I lost my feeling.
Everything.

I can't find you.
Where are you?
You were there,
What happened?

Now I know.
Perception and reality are two different things.
Sometimes you need things rather than just thoughts.
Yes, I understand that.

And these things,
That keep you alive on the departure want you to praise them.
They're looking at you,
With hope.

I'm going to rescue them,
They want me to change them completely.
Through my invisible heart,
Through the darkness of my mind.

I'm sorry.
Maybe we're no good to each other.
Too many dreams we have lost.
Too many blood we have shed.

Don't worry,
I won't blame you.
Find another light,
I'll find mine.

I'm going home,
To the place I used to be.
Enjoy the dark, Gavrielle.
I'll meet you in another chapter.

Monday, December 5, 2016

The Queen's Sacrifice.



 Part of me pictured you this whole time.
Never could believe that time goes by this fast.
I thought I saw a new life in your eyes,
With me, with them.

I can feel you with me all the time.
Your voice, your arms,
It feels so real,
It feels so good.

Years go by,
And things are changing.
I thought I could spend my life with you.
I thought we could be infinite.

You’re the reason it’s been so hard to sleep,
Until I saw you in another realm.
You're glowing,
And gone.

It's hard,
Guess it was hard for you too.
I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you,
To save you, from the wrath of the Hydraean.

Now, sleep, my dear Luna.
I will fight for you.
I will represent you.
Then, I will come home for you.

Thursday, December 1, 2016

Knights of the Round Table.


The rain falls down,
As we walk together through the valley of death,
Righteous and victorious,
 With eyes wide open.

The wait is finally over,
For Katharina the White,
Who has been dying to get through the realm of terror,
 Without any weapon but patience.

She walks with another warriors,
Sir Ramsez de la Monstera, the king,
Sir Vaughn Beethorver, the dragoon,
And Sir Galagher the Grey, the guardian.

Katharina the White walks out first,
And the three stays where they stand.
 Katharina the White bows for them,
Thanking them, and leaving with no regret.

Walk tall, my friends.
Head up high.
You shall fear no evil,
For you are the knight of the round table.

Saturday, November 26, 2016

Omen.



We are one.
Our blood, our skin,
Our fate, our shadow,
We are made to be together.

I never wished that I were someone else.
So I can look at you more than once,
Walk hand in hand with you,
And listen to your voice all day.

We are history.
 You're the reason why I've been fighting for years.
Why I cry and why I laugh,
Because you're the one.

It was hard,
Yes, it was.
Guess it was hard for you too.
But hey, I'm here.

I am not afraid.
I won't be.
I will catch you when you fall.
I will hold you in my arms. 

If they try to hurt you,
I'll tear them down.
Don't worry,
I'm always with you now.

When the world gone silent,
I'll be your sound.
 And if you end up as the world's enemy,
I'll be your knight.

Sunday, November 6, 2016

Veritas Numquam Perit.



You and I,
We are one.
To the root,
Even on a molecular level.

I am you,
And you are me.
I am me because you exist,
And you are you because I exist.

I am me because of the reflection I see off of you.
And you are you because of the reflection you see off of me.
You do not need to acknowledge my existence to exist,
Because I acknowledge me off of you, to exist.

We are the creators of our universe.
That life is a sea of perceptions.
We create our reality, our universe,
By the perceptions we subscribe to.

I don’t see myself through your eyes,
I do not exist because of the way you see me.
I define myself through what I think you see.
But, our energy connects to each other.

 I saw all the parts of me that I was reflecting off you.
And, so did you.
As I open up to see more of you,
I am really opening up to see more of me.

What you see is what you reflect.
We are the same person.
If you don't like what you see,
Then you've done something wrong.

Saturday, November 5, 2016

Einherjar.

I'm not insane.
I'm barely alive.
I'm not broken.
This is how I see the world.

I don't know you,
Who lives behind every shadow that moves.
I don't understand you,
Who likes to be a part of something ridiculous.

The green room,
The holy statue,
The circle of life, 
Are yours to be concerned.

The way you talk endlessly about people,
The way you see every chapter of your life,
The way you think about happiness,
You're a traitor to your kind.

This is my home.
The citadel of my mind,
The biggest fortress made from stolen hearts,
This is the only place I could have.

You shot me down,
You dropped me there,
To a place you can't even follow,
You bring hatred to my soul.

I will be the new culture reference.
I'm a work of art,
I'm a human in disguise,
I'm a Goddess.
 

Demons.

Pale skin and ashes,
Rotting, disappear,
In the blink of an eye,
Vanishing.

The sky turns red,
As I stand with you,
There, right there, inside the black dome,
Murmuring something.

Animal bones,
White feathers on my bed,
With all due respect,
This is not the skeleton I've been looking for.

Beneath the ocean,
I walk for hours to find a blue lagoon.
The thin line of a different substance,
Fill every color from its surroundings.

I don't understand.
Why it has to be dark,
When the sun goes down,
Though the world is not aching?

Acid, gas, and a broken doll made of wood,
Killing and pointing,
Even though the owl's still awake,
And the martyr suffers persecution and death for advocating.

Where is my life?
Where is yours?
Back to a time where our love is infinite,
We killed our leader to be loved.
 

Saturday, October 29, 2016

Gratia Mundi.


Walk with me through the cold of night.
Show me things,
Show me the future,
Teach me how.

The eye of the world is on fire.
Covered by fear,
We run away.
See? They're watching us.

Drown me there,
Inside your brain.
Pull me closer,
Don't go away.

Come here.
The souls who travel this way are rare.
Sit with me,
Embrace me. 

 You're my king.
Search the star,
Find your question,
Find me there.

I'm your queen.
 I'm the love you never received.
I'm your heart,
The knife you hold.

Stop playing the pain you gain.
Let it go.
I beg you, to become fearless,
For I am the white wolf you saw in the woods.

Roses of May.

Her heart heavy,
But she choose not to see.
Her tears blends with sweat,
And keeps pushing her feeling away. 

She begins to doubt herself.
"Am I good enough to live?"
"What lives must I take for the sake of my own happiness?"
"How much blood must stain for this warrior's blade?"

She wonders how far she will go.
Before her wishes are satisfied,
She wants to trust her head,
She wants to believe.

She's been through a lot of wars.
War leaves its mark not only on the land and on its people,
But also on the knight herself,
Which slowly taking away her soul as she witnesses and takes part in warfare.

She's a sole survivor,
The shadow beyond her fear.
She feels pain, heartache, and loss,
And never let go off her mask.

She trained herself to think,
That fear is her weakness,
And forgiveness is the mission,
So she might once again see the Roses of May.

Friday, March 11, 2016

Juturna.

Dear Juturna,
You deserve to be happy.
As long as you keep smiling,
Everyone is happy.

Dear Juturna,
You're like an ocean to me.
You're beautiful,
You're glowing.

Dear Juturna,
I know I've made mistakes.
Will you forgive me?
I won't haunt you anymore.

Juturna,
I always said I would never do the things I did.
And that is the reason it is so hard for you to forgive.
Yes, I knew it all along.

Juturna,
Do you remember how it was when we first started out?
We shared every thought,
And we fell so fast.

Maybe, we fell in love too soon.
We made a huge decision that now we cannot undo.
So, it is time for me to back off,
And let you do the things you want to do.

Juturna,
How can there be pain in a place where there is so much joy?
It is better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all.
Pull yourself together and rejoice that you have an awesome gift.

My dear Juturna,
I miss you.
 I will watch you disappear.
I'll see you in your wedding dress.

Thursday, March 10, 2016

Irina's Letter.

So,
Heaven is in love with Janus, eh?
She's in love with that kind of guy?
She'll dead.

Does she know about him? In and out?
Does she know about his past?
Does she know what's inside his head?
Does she know how cruel he can be?

Pity her.
 She fell in love with a wrong person.
She will suffer.
He will crush her heart, sooner or later.

Does she know that he's the one who made my life miserable?
Does she know that he's the one who ruined my life back then?
Does she know that he's the one who broke my brother's hand?
Does she know about that?

Can I do the count down?
Because this is going to be a spectacular show. 
She will turn into a wild animal,
Just like him.
 

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

One Winged Angel.


Her name is Andanté,
 And she's a generous woman.
 She loves to smile,
But she keeps her feelings to herself.

She believes that generosity is a sign of a kind soul.
 That's why everybody is happy when she's around.
She's that kind of girl who pays attention to every little detail.
Yes, she's so fine.
She's a tough woman.
She goes by the name of 'Miss Independent'.
Everyone is so proud of her.
Yet, she screams in silence.

What happened to her?
Did somebody hurt her?
Did somebody bring her down?
What happened.

For an hour,
She locked herself in her bedroom.
What was she doing?
Did she hurt herself?

 And then,
She came out.
She smiled,
And she said, "Hello".

Then, people found out the reason why.
The world was being rude to her.
Reality knocked her head really hard,
And she was murdered by the love she spread.

She believes she could love someone wholeheartedly.
She believes she could wait for her love to come back patiently.
She believes things will get better if she smiles.
She believes she has found someone who truly loves her.

But,
Why did you throw her away?
Why did you let her go?
Why did you?


How dare he walks into her life through the back door and unannounced?

Saturday, February 20, 2016

Memory of Lightwaves.


So fast,
It's like, it happened in a blink of an eye.
I did, I saw it coming,
And it still hurts.

I suddenly awaken.
As reality blends in my reverie,
I saw you,
Within my tears. 

Now, I understand.
The meaning of the promise we exchanged,
Doesn't mean anything at all. 
For all this time, I was looking from afar. 

And,
The dream I had on the day you left,
It hurt my head,
It crushed my heart.

I was screaming,
Very loud,
 But you won't even hear.
No, you can't even hear.

I can't control the hatred inside of me.
I can't let go of the pain, the anguish, and the loss I feel.
The fear came and took everything.
But still, I can't even cry.

Then suddenly,
Things changed.
So did my perspective,
 And the way I see people.

How can someone turned yourself down in one second?
How can you turned into someone you don't even know?
How can your perspective changed in one second?
How dare he did that to you?

Monday, January 25, 2016

Ikelos' Letter.

You're an idiot.
I'm surprised.
You're dating an animal, do you know that?
He's a rat, moron.

 He's that kind of guy who never looks down.
He's that kind of guy who breathes fire.
He's that kind of guy who never gives a shit about others.
Are you out of your mind?

I saw him once,
With blood ran down to his chest from his mouth.
He licked his own blood,
And smiled.

Stop doing this.
Don't do this to yourself.
Come with me,
And walk with me in the rain.

I know him so well.
We did have a great time together as a family.
Until he tricked me,
And he said it was my fault.

I bet you understand.
So, stop,
Don't hurt yourself.
Because he will wake you up with the beast inside himself.
 

Saturday, January 23, 2016

Janus' Letter.

 
Call me an animal, a wild animal.
I'm a black wolf in the woods.
I'm the apex predator here in my own world.
Call me anything you like.

You're the one who sees me differently.
The way you look at me,
It's intoxicating.
It hurts, but I keep holding on.

We're look alike.
We're wolves.
Can you see it?
Do you get it now?

Everyone has a dark side,
Even you.
Most of us go through life avoiding direct confrontation,
The reason is, it carries a great deal of energy.

I think it's healthy to have someone with the beast inside her or his body.
Because,
Nothing is ever as good as it seems.
Deal with it, and have fun with it.

I did challenge myself,
And it worked really great.
And now, I'm going to teach you how,
Because you have that gift, just like mine.

Heaven, look at me.
Now that we are together,
I will love you,
And I'll wake the beast inside of you.

Heaven's Letter.


​I don't know who you are.
We never talked before,
And I never saw you too.
Why did you came?

What do you want?
What do you want me to say?
What do you want to hear?
What do you want to feel?

And then, things suddenly change.
You asked me out,
You drove me home,
And oddly, you started smiling at me.

The way you look at me,
The way you talk,
The way you hold my hand,
I fell in love with you in just one glance.

But I don't believe you.
You got something in your mind.
The way you see people,
Is intoxicating.

Is that the darker side of you?
Is it?
What did they do to you?
What did you do to them?

You never told me why,
And I never asked.
But why?
It's like you just killed someone.

Don't make feel insecure.
Honestly, I feel safe if you're around.
But please, be honest,
And tell me, anything.

And don't look at me like that.
Don't smile.
Don't touch me.
Make me believe that you're the one.

Monday, November 30, 2015

It's Just, Realizing That the Only Person You Really Have Control Over is Yourself.


I know that everything and everyone that I hate is engraved upon my heart.
If you want to let go of something,
If you want to forget,
You have to be ready.

The truth is,
Unless you let go, unless you forgive yourself,
Unless you forgive the situation, unless you realize that the situation is over,
You can't move forward.

I tried,
I did, and I moved forward.
But it tickles, isn't it?
That feeling, that memories.

It was hard,
Because I fell so deep.
It was heavy,
I fucked up.

But in the end, only three things matter.
How much you loved,
How gently you lived,
And how gracefully you let go of things not meant for you.


Because no matter how much suffering I went through,
I never wanted to let go of those memories.
Those precious memories,
Are priceless.

I've no time to say goodbye.
Secret tears were flowing gently,
When I rush through it,
You were gone before I knew it.

Now, I am taking control,
And accepting that love and everything that followed it is part of letting it go.
I'm okay.
I'll turn my back on you forever.


Sunday, November 15, 2015

When No Wind Whirled.


I know you've been trying really hard to read my mind,
But you failed.
I know you've been trying to figure out my heart,
No, you can't

From now and forever,
I won't let you know what's inside me.
I won't let your eyes beg for it.
I won't let you walk closer.

But listen,
I can only pray,
I can only see,
What you really want to be in the next five years.

Hold her close,
Let me go.
Tell her you love her,
Let me walk away from here.

One thing,
Let me live in your eyes,
Let me be in your prayers,
Let me walk hand in hand with you in another dream.

Together Alone.


I was walking into the blue,
When he just got out from his imagination.
I asked him what happened,
He just stood there, and smiled.

We walked behind the pines,
Mountain smell, our favorite,
Brought us back to a time,
Where things were fine.

He wanted to be a miracle,
To be someone for someone,
And I said that he already has,
But he didn't believe my mouth.

And we ran,
In the snow,
Through our memories,
Through everything.

We won't come back.
He pulled me and cried.
I won't let you go, he said.
Then don't, I replied.

Enfold Me.

You are the blue lagoon,
Set in the pure heart of a naive little boy.
You are my salvation,
My light.

I learned a lot from you.
You're a droid.
You're a gambler,
You're a free soul.

You paint your dreams on a black canvas.
You love to play with your mind.
You are on your own again,
And you are emotionally fragile.

I know that you cried in silence on a misty weekend in winter.
I know that you smiled when I told you that your voice sounds familiar in my ears,
I know that you spoke about hope and love in the turbulence,
And I know that you tried to find grace and you failed.

I love the way you see the meeting of the sacred and the ordinary.
I love the way you solve the puzzle in me,
And I love the way you sing your heart out,
It's like, a one long song.

But we can't.
We just can't.
We can't go on.
Because we're on a different train.