Tuesday, June 6, 2017

Be Still with Me.


I will never be the same person, again.
I will never look at you that way,
I will never turn back time,
And I will never hold you like I always used to.

I should have realized,
Once I lose someone,
It's never exactly the same person who comes back.
It's just the shadow.

I lost someone,
I bet you did.
It was terrible, wasn't it?
It hurts, until now.

And this person won't come back.
He will never come back.
He will never sleep in my arms again,
He will never look at me the way he did back then.

I've tried, believe me.
It's just, things changed so fast,
And I couldn't keep up with it.
I couldn't reach him who walks beyond the clouds.

He keeps running,
Faster, away from me.
I cannot see him,
His colors are fading away.

I'm a human.
My feeling is untamed.
My dreams are broken, falling into pieces,
And our time is running out.

I'm sorry.
I am so sorry, Guadalajara.
I wish I could have more time.
I wish I could treat you better.

Inside my head,
In my endless thought,
I see you, walking hand in hand with me,
And then you left.

Maybe you're right.
Following your ego is the only option.
You said you don't know what you really want,
And you're trying to find out, and that's good.

I've been sleeping for three years,
And now I'm up,
Searching for something priceless,
That I thought it was you.

I will grieve this moment forever.
In sickness, in health,
I will miss you,
Like I always do.

If you're not ready to move out from our imagination,
My arms are here, wide open, for you.
If you come to me, years after this,
 I hope I could smile and said,

"Be still with me."

Friday, May 26, 2017

Fractures.


She expected the pain, when it came.
But it was not like she had felt before.
She smiled,
And the pain became warmth.

She let it live,
The pain, inside her body.
She made it light,
Very light.

Then,
Her blood stops running.
But she managed to shut the lid tight,
She was okay.

She brings life to eternity.
She's running full of speed at it.
But she's desperate for a change,
She's screaming in silence for what she wants.

She's young enough to break.
To kill, to burn.
But she stands tall,
No one can beat her.

She's alive and he knows it.
She's not happy, and he knows it.
He gave him sorrow, and she's fine with it.
She's unbreakable, yet unbelievable.

Thursday, May 25, 2017

Luna.

On a hill, behind her house,
Luna sits alone.
"They took him away," she said to herself.
"Forever."

She saw everything.
That was a bloody moment,
A scary moment,
That she'll never forget.

In this world full of trouble,
Where the madness won’t stop,
She's begging for mercy,
While holding her hands.

"No...," she whispered.
"Come back to me."
But nothing changed.
She's alone.

One day,
When she took a walk with an angel,
She asked, "Is life worth living when you need to get by?"
"I’m still lonely."

He smiled to her,
And stroked her hair.
"You are brave," he said.
"Brave enough to ask."

He took a step toward her,
Closing the space between them.
"You have to let me go," he said.
"If you don't do it now, you never will."

Everyone had a forever,
But given a choice.
With teary eyes, he whispered,
"I'll be the one to look away first."

"You've already made me cry countless times," Luna said to herself.
"And do you know what this is?"
Luna wipes her tears, hoping for a path to follow him there.
"It's me, wiping away the last tear you'll ever get."

Friday, May 12, 2017

Woman of the Apocalypse.


I'm closing the last curtain,
For you, for us,
This what we came for,
This is what we saw.

Pain is playing on repeat,
Anger, fire, and gold,
Combined and sold,
For your words and ignorance.

Hold it,
Take it away,
Away with you,
To the sky, into the light.

It should be different.
It sets us free from the illusion.
Because our desires are always changing.
Because they are often conflicting.

This is not a war.
It's essential,
Invisible to the eye,
My identity.

So what?
Maybe Luna had it right.
What and how much had I lost?
Tell me.

Don't be a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions.
You have to know what you stand for,
Or you will suffer.
Yes, you must not be defeated.

Sunday, May 7, 2017

Titan.

We're on the edge of destruction.
We were isolated,
No lights, no air,
But hope.

Yes, there is hope.
There was.
Depends on what you think,
Our connection.

Back to a time when we were infinite.
I didn't have time to tell you what I had just now realized,
I forgave you,
To survive in the labyrinth.

Now, I have to live with things left undone that day.
Things that didn't go right,
Things that seemed okay at the time because we could not see the future.
It was real.

If only I could see the endless string of consequences,
I would see your thoughts in those last minutes.
I would leave you on purpose.
I wouldn't turn back the time.

I was punishing you over and over for things that are out of your control.
Then, a fully loaded weapon showed.
I wanted to know you, I wanted you to let me in.
I didn't know you.

Now I know,
That place terrifies me.
I don't want to go back to that place.
Never.

But,
These words in my head,
Those promises,
How could I forget that?

Would that I could join you,
But this moment will have to be enough.
Look to the distance,
I am there.

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

So Long, Gavrielle.


There were times over the years when life wasn't easy.
A day full of dread,
Love lost, fifty hours of tears and torture,
It happened.

I looked up to the sky one day,
I was trying to find my home,
Afraid, and standing still,
For you my home in the light.

I was wrong, so wrong.
I lost you.
I lost my feeling.
Everything.

I can't find you.
Where are you?
You were there,
What happened?

Now I know.
Perception and reality are two different things.
Sometimes you need things rather than just thoughts.
Yes, I understand that.

And these things,
That keep you alive on the departure want you to praise them.
They're looking at you,
With hope.

I'm going to rescue them,
They want me to change them completely.
Through my invisible heart,
Through the darkness of my mind.

I'm sorry.
Maybe we're no good to each other.
Too many dreams we have lost.
Too many blood we have shed.

Don't worry,
I won't blame you.
Find another light,
I'll find mine.

I'm going home,
To the place I used to be.
Enjoy the dark, Gavrielle.
I'll meet you in another chapter.

Monday, December 5, 2016

The Queen's Sacrifice.



 Part of me pictured you this whole time.
Never could believe that time goes by this fast.
I thought I saw a new life in your eyes,
With me, with them.

I can feel you with me all the time.
Your voice, your arms,
It feels so real,
It feels so good.

Years go by,
And things are changing.
I thought I could spend my life with you.
I thought we could be infinite.

You’re the reason it’s been so hard to sleep,
Until I saw you in another realm.
You're glowing,
And gone.

It's hard,
Guess it was hard for you too.
I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you,
To save you, from the wrath of the Hydraean.

Now, sleep, my dear Luna.
I will fight for you.
I will represent you.
Then, I will come home for you.

Thursday, December 1, 2016

Knights of the Round Table.


The rain falls down,
As we walk together through the valley of death,
Righteous and victorious,
 With eyes wide open.

The wait is finally over,
For Katharina the White,
Who has been dying to get through the realm of terror,
 Without any weapon but patience.

She walks with another warriors,
Sir Ramsez de la Monstera, the king,
Sir Vaughn Beethorver, the dragoon,
And Sir Galagher the Grey, the guardian.

Katharina the White walks out first,
And the three stays where they stand.
 Katharina the White bows for them,
Thanking them, and leaving with no regret.

Walk tall, my friends.
Head up high.
You shall fear no evil,
For you are the knight of the round table.

Saturday, November 26, 2016

Omen.



We are one.
Our blood, our skin,
Our fate, our shadow,
We are made to be together.

I never wished that I were someone else.
So I can look at you more than once,
Walk hand in hand with you,
And listen to your voice all day.

We are history.
 You're the reason why I've been fighting for years.
Why I cry and why I laugh,
Because you're the one.

It was hard,
Yes, it was.
Guess it was hard for you too.
But hey, I'm here.

I am not afraid.
I won't be.
I will catch you when you fall.
I will hold you in my arms. 

If they try to hurt you,
I'll tear them down.
Don't worry,
I'm always with you now.

When the world gone silent,
I'll be your sound.
 And if you end up as the world's enemy,
I'll be your knight.

Sunday, November 6, 2016

Veritas Numquam Perit.



You and I,
We are one.
To the root,
Even on a molecular level.

I am you,
And you are me.
I am me because you exist,
And you are you because I exist.

I am me because of the reflection I see off of you.
And you are you because of the reflection you see off of me.
You do not need to acknowledge my existence to exist,
Because I acknowledge me off of you, to exist.

We are the creators of our universe.
That life is a sea of perceptions.
We create our reality, our universe,
By the perceptions we subscribe to.

I don’t see myself through your eyes,
I do not exist because of the way you see me.
I define myself through what I think you see.
But, our energy connects to each other.

 I saw all the parts of me that I was reflecting off you.
And, so did you.
As I open up to see more of you,
I am really opening up to see more of me.

What you see is what you reflect.
We are the same person.
If you don't like what you see,
Then you've done something wrong.

Saturday, November 5, 2016

Einherjar.

I'm not insane.
I'm barely alive.
I'm not broken.
This is how I see the world.

I don't know you,
Who lives behind every shadow that moves.
I don't understand you,
Who likes to be a part of something ridiculous.

The green room,
The holy statue,
The circle of life, 
Are yours to be concerned.

The way you talk endlessly about people,
The way you see every chapter of your life,
The way you think about happiness,
You're a traitor to your kind.

This is my home.
The citadel of my mind,
The biggest fortress made from stolen hearts,
This is the only place I could have.

You shot me down,
You dropped me there,
To a place you can't even follow,
You bring hatred to my soul.

I will be the new culture reference.
I'm a work of art,
I'm a human in disguise,
I'm a Goddess.
 

Demons.

Pale skin and ashes,
Rotting, disappear,
In the blink of an eye,
Vanishing.

The sky turns red,
As I stand with you,
There, right there, inside the black dome,
Murmuring something.

Animal bones,
White feathers on my bed,
With all due respect,
This is not the skeleton I've been looking for.

Beneath the ocean,
I walk for hours to find a blue lagoon.
The thin line of a different substance,
Fill every color from its surroundings.

I don't understand.
Why it has to be dark,
When the sun goes down,
Though the world is not aching?

Acid, gas, and a broken doll made of wood,
Killing and pointing,
Even though the owl's still awake,
And the martyr suffers persecution and death for advocating.

Where is my life?
Where is yours?
Back to a time where our love is infinite,
We killed our leader to be loved.
 

Saturday, October 29, 2016

Gratia Mundi.


Walk with me through the cold of night.
Show me things,
Show me the future,
Teach me how.

The eye of the world is on fire.
Covered by fear,
We run away.
See? They're watching us.

Drown me there,
Inside your brain.
Pull me closer,
Don't go away.

Come here.
The souls who travel this way are rare.
Sit with me,
Embrace me. 

 You're my king.
Search the star,
Find your question,
Find me there.

I'm your queen.
 I'm the love you never received.
I'm your heart,
The knife you hold.

Stop playing the pain you gain.
Let it go.
I beg you, to become fearless,
For I am the white wolf you saw in the woods.

Roses of May.

Her heart heavy,
But she choose not to see.
Her tears blends with sweat,
And keeps pushing her feeling away. 

She begins to doubt herself.
"Am I good enough to live?"
"What lives must I take for the sake of my own happiness?"
"How much blood must stain for this warrior's blade?"

She wonders how far she will go.
Before her wishes are satisfied,
She wants to trust her head,
She wants to believe.

She's been through a lot of wars.
War leaves its mark not only on the land and on its people,
But also on the knight herself,
Which slowly taking away her soul as she witnesses and takes part in warfare.

She's a sole survivor,
The shadow beyond her fear.
She feels pain, heartache, and loss,
And never let go off her mask.

She trained herself to think,
That fear is her weakness,
And forgiveness is the mission,
So she might once again see the Roses of May.

Friday, March 11, 2016

Juturna.

Dear Juturna,
You deserve to be happy.
As long as you keep smiling,
Everyone is happy.

Dear Juturna,
You're like an ocean to me.
You're beautiful,
You're glowing.

Dear Juturna,
I know I've made mistakes.
Will you forgive me?
I won't haunt you anymore.

Juturna,
I always said I would never do the things I did.
And that is the reason it is so hard for you to forgive.
Yes, I knew it all along.

Juturna,
Do you remember how it was when we first started out?
We shared every thought,
And we fell so fast.

Maybe, we fell in love too soon.
We made a huge decision that now we cannot undo.
So, it is time for me to back off,
And let you do the things you want to do.

Juturna,
How can there be pain in a place where there is so much joy?
It is better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all.
Pull yourself together and rejoice that you have an awesome gift.

My dear Juturna,
I miss you.
 I will watch you disappear.
I'll see you in your wedding dress.

Thursday, March 10, 2016

Irina's Letter.

So,
Heaven is in love with Janus, eh?
She's in love with that kind of guy?
She'll dead.

Does she know about him? In and out?
Does she know about his past?
Does she know what's inside his head?
Does she know how cruel he can be?

Pity her.
 She fell in love with a wrong person.
She will suffer.
He will crush her heart, sooner or later.

Does she know that he's the one who made my life miserable?
Does she know that he's the one who ruined my life back then?
Does she know that he's the one who broke my brother's hand?
Does she know about that?

Can I do the count down?
Because this is going to be a spectacular show. 
She will turn into a wild animal,
Just like him.
 

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

One Winged Angel.


Her name is Andanté,
 And she's a generous woman.
 She loves to smile,
But she keeps her feelings to herself.

She believes that generosity is a sign of a kind soul.
 That's why everybody is happy when she's around.
She's that kind of girl who pays attention to every little detail.
Yes, she's so fine.
She's a tough woman.
She goes by the name of 'Miss Independent'.
Everyone is so proud of her.
Yet, she screams in silence.

What happened to her?
Did somebody hurt her?
Did somebody bring her down?
What happened.

For an hour,
She locked herself in her bedroom.
What was she doing?
Did she hurt herself?

 And then,
She came out.
She smiled,
And she said, "Hello".

Then, people found out the reason why.
The world was being rude to her.
Reality knocked her head really hard,
And she was murdered by the love she spread.

She believes she could love someone wholeheartedly.
She believes she could wait for her love to come back patiently.
She believes things will get better if she smiles.
She believes she has found someone who truly loves her.

But,
Why did you throw her away?
Why did you let her go?
Why did you?


How dare he walks into her life through the back door and unannounced?