Sunday, April 13, 2014

On the Wing, On the Run.

In life,

We have secrets,
Things we regret,
Dreams we can't reach,
And a love that we will never forget.

Our lives are normal.
We are only human.
We made happiness,
We made mistakes.

I never said that you were my mistake.
You came for a reason,
I let you in for a reason,
It was normal.

And came the day you went away.
Until today,
Still I don't know why you left.
You haven't told me the reason why you went away.

It doesn't matter anymore.
I won't ask.
I will never look back at you.
Unless, I am planning to go that way.

Don't wake me up.
Let me dream.
So I won't weep when I return to my bitter reality,
Missing you, like I always wanted to.

I have loved and been loved.
And I know,
All I love is love,
And someone I love is going to be taken away.

I wanted to tell you everything.
Maybe, we could have lived differently.
Maybe, I could have loved you more.
Maybe, I could be there with you now instead of here.

If only I could said,
"I am so afraid of losing someone I love that I refuse to love anything",
Maybe, that would have made the impossible possible.
But I couldn't do it, and here I am, instead of there.

Or maybe,
You are a person who can never stay,
Who can never accept my offer of companionship for more than a little while,
A person, who loves to walk away.

You could go forward in your life without ever looking back over your shoulder,
And wondering what might have been.
Now, go.
And let me go.

I hope you never have to think about anything as much as I think about you.

Thursday, April 10, 2014

Until There Was You.

I'm sorry.
I should have kept you closer.
I should have watched you nicer.
I should have loved you better.

You're still the one that I adore.
And I guess I will always adore you that way.
The one and the only,
The way you are.

Your paths are straight.
You don't live in our dreams anymore.
What is ours is not ours anymore.
And now my heart is open to love and regret.

I'm reminiscing the moment we made.
What I'm wishing right now is to have nother figure to hold,
Someone who loves to talk, another similar figure like you.
Yes, someone who doesn't exist.

Outside in the morning air,
You've known the times that you've lived and died.
You heard the soundtrack of your future.
You ran to it and left me behind.

You didn't include me there in your future.
It's okay now,
It doesn't matter anymore.
It's good for you though.

I am not good enough.
We're different but that's not a big deal for me.
Well maybe, for you.
Fuck this shit.

Once again,
I am sorry that I came.
I ruined your life.
It won't happen again.

"Because all of me loves all of you and all your perfect imperfections"

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Under the Starry Sky of Her Imagination, She Dances of A Journey.

Dear you,
Who lives so far away,
I miss you now more than ever.
I miss you like hell.

Have you ever wondered what it could be like,
Back in the day when I was too selfish, 
You were after nothing I could give,
And we're not always what we promised to be.

Have you ever wondered what it could be like, 
Back in the day when you tried to reach me,
There's nothing there,
And we are better off this way.

I should have held you tighter,
I should have treated you better,
I should have loved you from a distance.

I loved you,
More than anyone else could ever know.
But you left,
And I've never been one to beg you to not to.

And now, there's nothing left for me to do.
I watched with tears in my eyes as you walked away.
I miss your voice, that laughter,
I loved you and could that be enough?

And now there's silence,
It's been too long since I've heard from you.
And now I realize, 
That my heart still belongs to you.

Have a great life out there in Borneo.
Follow your heart,
And yes, you have to sacrifice someone for it.
Now, let me close this book.

I love you.
Wherever you are,
Remember, there's still a space in my heart that will always belong to you.
I miss you, more than you'll ever know.