I Guess Love Wouldn't Let Me.

Well,
























Aku hanya terlalu takut jauh dari kamu.

Rewinded.

Good midnight, my baby beluga.

Today was not good. I cried today but I laugh so hard too today.
My baby beluga, I'm upset with everything around me now. It's like, life's unfair, for a moment.

My mind rewinded a bad memories and it hurted everytime it comes.

And Dont Ever Lie To Me, My Baby Beluga.

My baby beluga, I guess the rain would fall for a couple minutes. Let me hear you singing in the rain, let it out, let your emotions out.

No, dont cry, my baby beluga. I will never hurt you, I will never leave you. Come closer, baby beluga. Let me fix you.

I would hold you tight, my baby beluga. I would live with you underwater. I would die with you in the sea. I would sing with you every night. I would cry with you if you cant hold it anymore. I would make you feel so warm in this cold sea. You're mine, baby beluga. Just dont let go.

She Did.

Honestly, I dont know how to start this but.... Let my brain and hands do the writing.
You're just too good to be true. You're a good person. A very good man. You love me, and I love you. But why? You're so hard to reach?

I know you'll confuse. Why you're so hard to reach. Differences knock me down. We have, like, thousand dreams to reach and to share, but still, our dreams cant answer any of my questions. You're too far to reach, baby.

Spread Your Wings and Fly!

28/09/2010

Dear, Dennis Sapulete.
Thankyou for staying with me for almost 5 months.
Hari ini... Kita banyak share perasaan.
Dan kaya biasa, aku banyak nanya :p
I really love to share my feelings with you, dan aku ga ragu.
Karna kamu sangat dewasa dalam menjawab semua cerita2 aku :)

Aku seneng banget dengan cara kamu merlakuin aku.
Dan kamu bener2 bisa nunjukin ke aku kalo kamu sayang sama aku.
I really love it :)
Gimana gelisahnya kamu kalo aku ga angkat telefon dari kamu,
Gimana khawatirnya kamu kalo aku pulang sendiri,
Gimana pedulinya kamu kalo aku belom makan,
Gimana perhatiannya kamu kalo lagi ujan deres dan aku pulang sendiri,
Gimana protektifnya kamu kalo ada orang yang ganggu aku,
Gimana sayangnya kamu sama aku ampe ngebukain pintu mobil buat aku,
You're so sweet, like, I dont need any sugar in my tea :p lebe ah

Sorry, maybe this is embarrassing but...
Aku seneng kita tadi nangis bareng di mobil.
Terharu karena kita merasa dihargai satu sama lain,
Terharu karena kita sama2 makin sayang satu sama lain :)

Honestly,
I am so afraid if you're too far away from me.
Aku bakal kaget, biasanya aku sering ketemu sama kamu,
Dipelukin kamu kalo aku lagi sedih/badmood,
Bercanda2 ga jelas ampe ketawa2 ga jelas juga,
Dijemput kamu pulang kampus,
Ke rumah kamu ketemu mamah terus joget2 SuJu....
Terus tiba2 kamu engga ada,
Aku butuh dipeluk kamu cuma kamu ga bisa,
Butuh ketemu kamu karena kangen...
Nanti ujung2nya cuma bisa webcaman ato sms ato telfon............
Speechless.
The fear comes unexpectedly, and I'll be below zero.

Mungkin susah untuk berhari-hari untuk beradaptasi sama keadaan,
Cuma ini kan buat kebaikan kamu dan aku juga,
Jadi kalo kita ikhlas, sabar dan jalanin ini sama2, pasti kita bisa kan? :)

I always want to be one of your special person in your life.
And it happens! :D
Dont ask back, cause you're one of my special person in my life too :)
Thankyou, for being one of the best person in my life.
You are my hero!
And I always pray what's best for you :)

Aku cuma minta satu,
Jangan pernah berubah.
Tetaplah sama sifat kamu yang sekarang.
Kalo pun berubah, jadilah orang yg lebih baik, walopun kamu udah cukup baik sama aku dan orang lain :)

"Cause boy, you're amazing, just the way you are"

LOVE YOU! xxx

No Words Could Explain.

I'M HAPPY BECAUSE MY FAMILY LOVES YOU SO MUCH. MY MOM TREATS YOU LIKE HER OWN SON, MY DAD ASKS YOU A LOT OF QUESTIONS, AND MY BROTHER SAYS HE IS SO COMFY WITH YOUR ATTITUDE.

THANKYOU GOD, FOR GIVING ME DENNIS ALBERT SAPULETE IN MY LIFE :)

Gladiator.

Anol shalom
Anol sheh lay konnud de ne um
Flavum
Nom de leesh
Ham de nam um das...

La um de
Flavne
We de ze zu bu
We de sooo a ru
Un va-a pesh a lay
Un vi-i bee
Un da la pech ni sa

Un di-i lay na day
Un ma la pech a nay mee di nu ku

La la da pa da le na da na
Ve va da pa da le na la dumda
La la da pa da le na da na
Ve va da pa da le na la dumda
La la da pa da le na da na
Ve va da pa da le na la dumda
La la da pa da le na da na
Ve va da pa da le na la dumda

Anol shalom
Anol sheh ley kon-nud de ne um
Flavum
Flavum
M-ai shondol-lee
Flavu Lof flesh lay
Nof ne
Nom de lis
Ham de num um dass
La um de
Flavne
Flay
Shom de nomm
Ma-lun des dwondi.
Dwwoondi

Alas sharum
du koos
Shaley koot-tum


Almighty Freedom
Almighty freer of the soul
Be free
Walk with me
Through the golden fields
So lovely
Lovely

We regret our sins, but...
We sew our own fate and
Under my face I remain feeble
Under my face, I smile

Dont understand? This song has a great meaning.


Even alone/afraid
Under my face I will be waiting

Run with me now soldier of Rome
Run and play in the field with the ponies
Run with me now soldier of Rome
Run and play in the field with the ponies
Run with me now soldier of Rome
Run and play in the field with the ponies
Run with me now soldier of Rome
Run and play in the field with the ponies

Almighty Freedom
Almighty freeer of the soul
Be free
Be free
And imagine
Free with peace at last
It's lovely
It's lovely, this land
No one can believe or understand
How far I came just for my lovely family
I should have been there
with them when the world crashed down
But now they rest with me.

I'll never forget
How I felt that moment
I became free.

Maybe It's Supposed To Be This Way.

I remember my Grandfather's face before they buried him. He looked like almost smiling. And I slept beside his cold dead body with swollen eyes...

I remember that day, I just got home and my dad told me that he left us. I ran to my mom and cried, so did she. And the moment when I saw his body being moved out from the ambulance. It suffocated me and believe me, you will never, nor never can, say a single word. I almost fell that moment, but somebody held my arm, I dont remember who is it.

This is my first year, fasting without visiting him in a real life. I went to his grave today, and I realized that, it's been a year since you left us... You used to called Hanif (my brother) 'Boy' and served us with Teh Botol if we came to visit. You used to tell us your story when you spent your whole day hunting, whether it was a deer or a boar. And... Honestly, I love to see your medals and photos in your cupboard. Looks wow for me.

It was hard to not to cry in front of people, Grandpa. My mom cried for you, so did I. And I brought a red rose, hope you like it. Sorry we didnt waste a long time on your grave, ofcourse you dont want to see people cry for you, right?

Dear Grandfather. Rest in peace. And oh, happy fasting :) I miss you.

Siren Song

Beginilah ketika mencintai seseorang terlalu dalam. Apapun yang dilakuin ga pernah lepas dari Dennis, selalu berhubungan sama Dennis.

Dennis, Dennis dan Dennis.

Semua orang punya hak buat mencintai orang lain. Badan ini kan badan kami, jadi ini otomatis ini juga jadi hak kami. Apa aku salah?

One of the greatest part is when I took a peek to my folder named Liberi un Fatali in my inbox. It was like, almost 3000 messages are waiting to read :) and believe it or not, I never get tired to read all of those.

And when we sang our anthem together! "KELONG, KELONG KELONG KELONG KELONG KELONG!" annoying like hell, because our voice turned out to be so damn loud with a high pitch voice. Yea, shoot us.

And when I listen to Pitbull's and I saw him. He made a move like... Uhuh. Well I cant describe, only when you see it then you'll understand ;) he made a sexy moves and I enjoyed it. That's the reason why I downloaded Pitbull - Juice Box to my iPod :p it fits him so much.

And when I felt so sleepy, and he told me to go to sleep. He made feel like I'm his cuddly teddy bear :) he always... Umm.. Okay what's the word... Well, 'empok2' (LOL) my ass until I fell asleep. He's a nice guy alive.

Too many stories I would like to share but I'll write it later :)

Dennis Albert Sapulete.
Kebanggaan dari kebanggaanku.
Kelebihan dari kelebihanku.
Kesayangan dari kesayanganku.
Love you Kelong boy!

Oh and...

We All Need A Reason Because We Have Chance To Stay.

Please don't cry, baby beluga.
You know, all God's creatures have chances to do something.
Let me hear your song.
Let me see your face.

Oh, don't cry, baby beluga.
Everything's gonna be okay.
Well, maybe at the moment.
Go swim the ocean freely.

Baby beluga,
You're the victim of authority.
I know,
We all need a reason because we have chance to stay.

And if your heart can't hold it any longer,
Then close your eyes, baby beluga, and imagine something beautiful.
Because your imagination is stronger than everything.

Close your eyes, baby beluga.
And dream.

Anakin, You Dont Have To Love Padme, Love Me.

“I am Me. In all the world, there is no one else exactly like me. Everything that comes out of me is authentically mine, because I alone chose it -- I own everything about me: my body, my feelings, my mouth, my voice, all my actions, whether they be to others or myself. I own my fantasies, my dreams, my hopes, my fears. I own my triumphs and successes, all my failures and mistakes. Because I own all of me, I can become intimately acquainted with me. By so doing, I can love me and be friendly with all my parts. I know there are aspects about myself that puzzle me, and other aspects that I do not know -- but as long as I am friendly and loving to myself, I can courageously and hopefully look for solutions to the puzzles and ways to find out more about me. However I look and sound, whatever I say and do, and whatever I think and feel at a given moment in time is authentically me. If later some parts of how I looked, sounded, thought, and felt turn out to be unfitting, I can discard that which is unfitting, keep the rest, and invent something new for that which I discarded. I can see, hear, feel, think, say, and do. I have the tools to survive, to be close to others, to be productive, and to make sense and order out of the world of people and things outside of me. I own me, and therefore, I can engineer me. I am Me, and I am Okay."

-Virginia Satir

Someday I'll forget the color of your eyes, the sound of your voice will be unfamiliar. Someday I'll forget that I once loved you, the feelings will have faded, someday I'll forget.

I Need You Here, Always.

Beberapa orang bilang pas gw udah sama Dennis sekarang, gw berubah. Mereka bilang gw lebih bahagia dan punya sifat yang sama2 sarap kaya Dennis.

Jujur, saya, sangat bersyukur telah memiliki Dennis Albert Sapulete dalam hidup saya. Dennis adalah kelebihan saya, Dennis adalah mata pengganti saya, Dennis adalah pembela saya, Dennis adalah darah saya. Dan Dennis, adalah orang yang saya cintai.

Your Idot Kinda Life.

Dear Mr. Idiot,

I want you to go home.
What's on your mind, idiot?
What happened to you?
You're not the same person like I know you.
Why you did this to your mother?
Why you dare to do it?
Whatever happens, SHE'S YOUR MOTHER. Underline that.

You disappoint me so much.
Not only me, your friends and your family too.
If you reply, "You know nothing about them!" then you're one of the foolest person in the world.

You said that you love your mother more than everything.
You said that you will never let her cry.
For a days, your words turn into dust.
Grow up, idiot.

Kid, remember one thing.
If your mother didn't give birth,
YOU WILL NEVER FUCKING BORN.


Grow up, make your parent and your grandmother proud.

I Know You Love Purple.

Arzita Shafira.

Perempuan yang selalu menjadi sahabat baikku selama lebih dari 3 tahun.
Perempuan yang selalu mengisi kekosongan hidupku.
Perempuan yang selalu membelaiku dengan tangan lebutnya (LESBI ABIS)
Perempuan yang selalu menghiburku ketika aku sedih.
Perempuan yang selalu memberikan advice terbaik untukku.
Perempuan yang selalu memperhatikanku di setiap waktu.
Perempuan yang selalu menjadi setengah jiwaku.
Perempuan yang selalu menjadi jodohku (anjir anjir anjir HAHAHA)
Perempuan yang selalu menasihitaku disaat otakku kaku.
Perempuan yang selalu mengesmsku setiap hari.
Perempuan yang selalu menghiasi hariku.
Perempuan yang selalu memberikan lelucon2 tertai setiap hariku.
Perempuan yang selalu menjadi perempuan (?)

Siet, just wanna let you know, I swear I cant go on without you. You are my bestest friendm a super duper true friend of mine. I'll go crazy if you are not around.

Sya, I'm very glad to have a friend like you. I hope our relationship (EMUAHAHAH) will alway go on, because being your friend is one of the most happiest moment in my life.

I would cook a chicken with ketchup sauce for you everyday, even it tastes..... Funny. I would bring Skippie to your house... Even you hate it HAHA. I would your blue eyes of Hassassin, your Gisli Orn Gardasson for life.

I would be, your Jacob Black.

Thankyou, Arzita Shafira.
You've made my days :)

PS: sy buat ini pas sy lg mtg, tk

On The Wing of Albatross.

Dear Dennis Albert Sapulete,
I’m writing this letter on behalf of myself, I’m proud of what you’ve done.
You’re going to be a pilot soon, just like your father.

I’m very proud of you. So proud. Extremely proud. Perjuangan kamu selama ini akhirnya ngebuahin hasil, iya ga? :)

Inget dimana aku baru bangun mau ke kampus kamu udah di tempat tes, dan betapa deg-degannya kamu saat itu. Dari mulai tes kesehatan, tes yang kata kamu paling susah, kamu bisa lewat. Alhamdullilah banget akhirnya kamu sekarang jadi part of BIFA :)

Friday, 2 July 2010
Someone called you. Dan jujur, pas aku liat cara kamu nanggepin orang di telfon itu, aku tau ini pasti orang BIFA. Aku sok2 liat buku kenangan kamu aja.. And when you ended up the call… Mukamu sumringah. You are part of BIFA now. You passed all of the tests. Dan bertepatan sama ulangtaun papah dan ulangtaun pernikahan ke 30 orangtua kamu. What a wonderful present for your dad and your mom :)

Dan pas di jalan pulang, we had a little conversation which makes you gave me your never-ending-smile. Betapa bangganya aku sama kamu, I’m impressed. It was a perfect day between you and your life, family, friends and me :)

Kamu bilang, pilot itu cita2 kamu dari kecil. Rata2, orang2 pada bilang kalo anak kecil makin gede cita2nya pasti berubah, tapi tidak buat kamu. Kamu pegang cita2 kamu hingga kamu dewasa hingga akhirnya cita2 kamu udah 50% kecapai. And for the first step, kamu udah keterima di BIFA.

Dan apa yang aku pikirin? Jarang ada anak kecil yang masa kecilnya kaya kamu, dari kecil sampe gede aja kamu bisa berpegang kuat sama pendirian kamu tanpa kehasut orang lain dan kamu usaha keras banget buat mencapai itu. Dan, kamu udah bisa nunjukin kedewasaan kamu dari kamu kecil :) That makes you one of kind J I think I’m one of the luckiest person in the world :)


Kamu bilang orang2 ngeliat kamu sebelah mata (mungkin karena kamu ga sekolah, cengengesan dan selengean juga) but now, what will they say? They’ll respect you. HELLO CAPTAIN! HOW’S EVERYTHING? Bangga ga sih? Calon kaptenku? :D

Sekarang, aku Cuma bisa doa terus buat kamu. Ngedoain kamu supaya sukses dan lancar2 aja selama kamu belajar. You are one step closer to your dream, dearest :) you will conquer the air! And I’m happy for you :)

Btw, I’m listening to Chris Brown – Crawl. The song has a great meaning, here's the lyric:

“If we crawl, until we can walk again, and we’ll run, until we’re strong enough to jump, then we’ll fly, until there is no end…”

Liriknya bagus banget… Dan aku ngartiin bagian ini mungkin beda sama yang laen, dan apa yang aku dapet dari lirik ini adalah, kita coba dari bawah, dari mulai kita ga bisa apa2, dan untuk bisa apa2 kita harus belajar, tinggi, makin tinggi dan kita bisa capai apa yang kita mau, until there’s no end for that :)

Dear Captain Sapulete Jr.,
If only for one moment, the air had shared with you all it knows,
The air wouldn’t be a mystery.

I will find you, my darling,
I will hold you close, my melody,
And sing the song of the air with you.

..Reach your dreams, be proud of yourself.

btw nanti ga begini ya? zz

Still waiting that day, where you knock my door and says, “Honey, I’m home!” and I open the door and see you with uniform. And I say, “Hello Capt, welcome home” :)

I love you, Dennis.

Yours sincerely,

Yours.

Life's But A Walking Shadow, A Poor Player...

Saturday, 12/06/2010

Dear mother,
I want you to know how it feels to be your daughter for almost 15 years.
Dear father,
I want you to know that I’m 18 going on 19.
Dear brother,
I want you to know that I’m so jealous with your life.
Dear grandmother,
I want you to know that I love you and disappoint you.
Dear grandfather.
I want you to know that I love you and you have disappointed me.
Dear bestfriends,
I want you guys, to know, that I love you so much.
Dear lover,
I want you to know that I would give you the best.

It’s not easy. Life is cruel.

I’ve been sitting in front of the monitor for almost 4 hours, listening to Aerosmith – Crazy, The Chemical Brothers – Hold Tight London etc. The weather knows my feelings so well. I’m cold and I need a hug.

Dear God,
I don’t want to grow up. I swear, I don’t want to grow up. I want to stay as a girl, not a woman. I want my childhood back, where I was talking to myself while playing Barbie all day long. Where me and my family used to go to Puncak on the weekend.

I remember when I was a child, my dad recorded me a video when we were in Safari Park. We used to go there every weekend, just to show me animals and teach me how to love them. Can I get this part back? It was lovely.

And I remember when I was in the Kindergarten, my grandma used to come and pick me up. And my teacher asked, “Is that your auntie?” because my grandma looks so young and pretty. Yes, she is.

And I wonder, 10 years from now… No, 15 years from now… I’m at home, and there’s a photo album on my lap….. And I open it, and see a picture of my mother, father, grandmother, grandfather…………………….. Smiling.

By a strange coincidence, my playlist is playing Yiruma – The River Flows In You. Heart beating fast, tears running down my face, my mouth opens, wishing I could say a word. Still, calmly sitting in front of the monitor.

Dear God,
I don’t want to lose them! I’m afraid to grow old! It’s not about my skin, my face or else, no! I don’t want to lose my mother! My father! My grandmother! My bestfriends! My lover! I don’t want to lose them! I’m afraid that someday in the future I will reach alone! This year I almost lost my grandmother and I’m not ready! I AM NOT FUCKING READY FOR ANY OF THESE!


Dear God,
If I am strong enough to know your secret about my life…
Could I help you, or ask you, to arrange my life?
Or do my life over?

Jealous, Much?

Know what, I am so jealous with her.
YOU DRIVE HER INSANE.

Dear Captain, I Can See Those Dolphins Jumping Beautifuly.

Tuhan selalu menciptakan manusia berbeda-beda. Beda prinsip, beda mimpi dan beda sifat. Dan aku yakin, dibalik itu semua, Tuhan punya rencana. Rencana yang para malaikat-Nya pun tak tahu.

Dan aku yakin, Tuhan mempertemukan aku dengan dia pun pasti ada maksud dibalik itu. Tuhan ingin aku membuatnya bahagia, Tuhan ingin aku menjaganya, Tuhan ingin aku mengontrol emosinya. Tuhan ingin aku membuatnya menjadi lebih baik.

Tapi, ada satu perbedaan diantara kita berdua yang kita pun ngga bisa terima itu. Ngga akan aku sebutkan perbedaan apa itu, yang jelas perbedaan itu kadang membuatku sakit hati. Kita memiliki jalan yang berbeda.

Tuhan membuatku jatuh padamu. Tuhan mempercayakan aku padamu. Apa arti dari rencana Tuhan kali ini? Ketika aku mendapat seseorang yang memiliki sifat yang benar-benar membuatku jatuh padanya, ketika aku mendapat pendamping yang sangat istimewa, yang membuat bias lebih dari nyaman……… Kenapa perbedaan itu selalu ada dan kami mungkin tidak akan bisa bersama?

Mencintai seseorang meskipun memiliki sejuta perbedaan, tidak akan memberhentikan jalanku. Air mata mungkin tidak akan berhenti mengalir, tapi untuk sisa waktu yang tersisa, aku akan tetap jalani apa yang akan kulakukan. Karena kupikir, detik-detik bersamamu adalah sebuah hadiah yang istimewa.

Mencintai seseorang, bukan berarti harus memiliki orang itu. Hanya dengan mengetahui bahwa aku sayang sama kamu dan kamu sayang sama aku, itu lebih dari cukup.

Salah jika orang bilang aku mencintai orang bukan pada tempatnya, bukan pada waktunya. Karena perasaan ini bisa datang kapan saja dan pada siapa saja. Aku tidak akan memperdulikan kata orang, aku akan terus dengan jalanku dan pikiranku.

Aku berhenti menulis sebentar. Perasaan tidak bisa berbohong. Menangis untuk membela diri, menangis untuk mengatakan pada otak bahwa apa yang kulakukan benar. Menangis sambil bertanya dalam hati, "Mengapa semua ini terjadi?". Menangis untuk orang lain, buatku itu adalah pengorbanan.

Air mata harus dibalas dengan senyuman, dengan ketabahan hati. Tarikan nafas berulang kali kulakukan. "Aku sanggup menjalani semuanya walau sakit". Kedewasaanku harus keluar. Apapun jalan yang kuambil, aku harus terima resikonya. Dan senyum pun merekah.

To love someone, is to love everything.

Piano And Acoustic Guitar Will Confess

Oh wait, Mr. Lovely

I will never be leaving you.

Deep Logic Feels Like Deep Throat Sometimes.

Once a night, my friend, Erpot, gave a very good question.
Pertanyaan ini juga gw tanyain sama beberapa orang temen2 gw,
Dan 80% dari mereka ngasih jawaban yang sama dengan alesan yg sama.
Dan berikut pertanyaannya.

"Suatu hari lo di mobil sama pacar dan sahabat lo. Lo pacaran udah setaun, dan lo sama sahabat lo ini udah sahabatan dari kecil. Dan lo kecelakaan dan lo selamet, dan lo punya kesempatan buat nyelametin salah satu orang di mobil lo. HANYA SATU ORANG, underline that. Pilih selametin yg mana? Pacar ato sahabat?"

80% orang yang gw tanya pertanyaan ini, ngejawab sahabat, dengan alesan yg kebanyakan, sahabat ga bisa dicari tp pacar bisa dicari.

Tapi beda sama gw. Buat gw, gw lebih milih PACAR.
Kenapa?
Gw punya 3 alesan, dan alesan ini gw jawab langsung dengan logika dan saat itu juga dengan amat sangat mantap ohohohoh.

1. Mulut orang zaman sekarang, kasar. Apa kata orang kalo mereka ngeliat lo nyelametin sahabat lo duluan daripada pacar lo? Jelas jadi bahan omongan banget. Karena yang mereka tau, di mobil itu, lo lagi sama pacar lo dan TEMEN lo, siapa yang tau kalo di mobil itu sahabat lo? Contoh, lo ngenalin pacar lo ke semua orang kaya, "Kenalin, cewe/cowo gw" dan pernah ga lo ngenalin sahabat lo dengan "Kenalin, sahabat gw" yang ada pasti "Kenalin, temen gw". Dan, karena mulut orang2 zaman sekarang jahat, lo bakal jadi bahan omongan orang2 dan itu ngaruh bgt buat lo karena itu termasuk pencemaran nama baik. Mungkin hal ini bukan masalah gede buat tipe orang yang cuek ato punya prinsip "I dont live to please them, I live for myself" tapi tetep aja, diomongin dibelakang itu ga enak :)

2. Kita sedang dalam keadaan normal dan ga lagi kecelakaan, jelas otak kita dipacu buat mikir lebih penting mana. Tapi kalo lo lagi kecelakaan, apa lo bisa mikir panjang untuk nentuin lo harus nyelametin siapa? Engga. Kita bisa bilang sahabat karena otak kita disuruh berpikir dan dalam keadaan normal, tapi kalo udah kejadian? Kebanyakan orang reflek akan nyelametin pacar mereka ketimbang sahabat mereka.

3. Apa ketika sahabat lo masuk rumah sakit, lo bakal jengukin tiap hari? Belom tentu. Sedangkan kalo pacar lo masuk rumah sakit, apa lo jengukin tiap hari? Iya, ini bener.

Itu adalah 3 alesan pribadi gw kenapa gw lebih milih PACAR dari sahabat. Bukannya gimana, tapi gw nyoba buat gunain logika gw. Bukan maksudnya buat gw sahabat itu ga penting... Mereka penting, tapi disaat keadaan darurat, ada saatnya kita lebih ke pacar kita karena kita selalu kontak sama pacar kita tiap hari, dan sedangkan sama sahabat kita? Belom tentu tiap hari.

I love my bestfriends.
I love my boyfriend.
It's all the same.
Mereka sama2 penting.
Tapi ada kalanya pikiran kita yang menentukan lain :)

....And She Said

I want you,
To stay beside me all day long.
I want you,
To feel me in your arms.
I want you,
To know that the most beautiful view is the one I share with you.
I want you,
To know that I always there for you.
I want you,
To see how much I need you.
I want you,
To wipe away my tears when I am crying.
I want you,
To touch my cheeks when I am sad.
I want you,
To let my arms wrap your body when you are down.
I want you,
To know that I always pray what is best for you.
I want you,
To answer my phone call just to say hello.
I want you,
To open you arms very wide when I run to you.
I want you,
To sing a long with me.
I want you,
To see me doing Tango seriously.
I want you,
To look through my eyes fondly and smile.
I want you,
To sit beside me until the night comes up.
I want you,
To watch the city lights with me until the morning comes.
I want you,
To be the best pilot that I have ever known.
I want you,
To reach your dreams.
i want you,
To be the best.
And last, but not least,
I want you...
To see me saying 'I love you' with tears.

Make it more than words.
I love you, Captain Dennis Albert Sapulete :)

30 Seconds To 4 Years Ago

Perasaan baru hari Sabtu kemaren ngumpul sama anak2... Tapi kenapa udah kangen aja ya? Kangen suasananya, ketawa2nya.... Oh God :(

Salah satu faktor yang kerasa banget; mungkin gw udah lama ga ngumpul sama anak2. Gw jarang ketemu sama anak2, mungkin. Kaya anak2 pada ke Bali 2009 kemaren juga gw kan ga ikut. Padahal gw yakin bisa mati ketawa kalo ikut ke Bali :)

Dan faktor yang paling ngena; Aska mau ke Bali. FYI, Askandari Nakagawa Notodihardjo is one of my bestest friends i have ever had. Orangnya sekut banget, baik banget dan sepenanggungan sama gw. Orang yang paling enak buat cerita yang 'engga2'. Haha. Cosmo Girl, muntah darah? Cuma dia yang ngerti ;p

Dan, akhir Maret ini, dia bakal berangkat ke Jepang. Mungkin gw bakal kaget, soalnya gw ga bisa maen ke rumah dia lagi. Keterangan rumah dia, udah gw jelasin di post yang di bawah :)

Kalo misalnya anak2 pergi jalan2 lagi tanpa dia, kemana kita mau nginep? Mau gila2an? Mau ngebul dan mabuy2? Bingung kan? Gw bener2 harus siap. Ngerti banget rasanya ditinggal sahabat pergi keluar negeri dan balik beberapa tahun sekali, contohnya, Funi. Dan sekarang, gw nyesel ga ketemu dia selama dia disini.

Dan pas nulis post ini, gw baru sadar. Gw kangen sama suasana hari Sabtu kemaren karena GW KANGEN TEMEN2 GILA GW YANG DULU.

Ari, Daici, Benj, Shido, Dida, Lutvi, Rifraf, Gore, Vivi, Ales, Putra, Dio. Terutama Ari, Rifraf, Gore, Daici.

Kemana kalian sekarang? Acin kangen loooh..... :) Take care guys! Kalian semua harus sukses!

Inget dulu pas ke Fishing Valley, si Daici geli banget ngeliat ikan lele segede paha gw -_____- ampe balik2 ketemu kita2 ampe lompat2 nyengir terus dikomenin sama Ari, "Mukelu kaya abis merkosa gurame". Terus, kan disana ada bumper boat, kita pada naek kan (ya walopun agak maksa karena buat anak kecil) dan ketawa2 bareng. Cuma Dida yang ga berani naik. Pertama dia blg 'childish banget sih lo semua' (maklum gw paling muda sendiri, yang laen 2 taun diatas gw) dan ternyata dulu dia pas naik bumper boat pernah kecebur -.-

Pas ke Puncak juga. Waktu itu ada Daici Rifraf Lutvi Putra sama gw, berlima aja. Si Daici, Rifraf sama Lutvi pergi nyari jagung bakar sejam ga balik dan Putra ngomong sambil ngelus2 brewoknya, "Lagi ke Hotel di bawah kali, cari tempat buat berhubungan".

Pas ke Bandung. Gw Rere sama Shido maen UNO, si Rere saking ga mau kalahnya ampe dipelototin tuh kartunye ampe matanya beraer. Trs waktu itu mau ke 18 Park, si Benje nyari temennya, dan gw dgn santainya bilang, "itu bukan Nje, yang item kaya gorilla Jawa, yang gimbal", maksud gw bercanda, dan Benje ngebales, "oh itu dia". Gulp. Pas ke Tangkuban Perahu, si Dida belagu banget naik kuda. Shido bilang, "Gw tepok aja ya pantat kudanya? Biar lari terus nyebur kawah" BABIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII GA KEBAYANG!!!

Sama pas di rumah Ari, Rifraf kan bawa amer, nah temen gw kan, Deza, bawa adenya yang masih SD kls 3 kalo ga salah waktu itu, nanya ke kakaknya. "Bang, ini sirop ya? Mau dong", dan dengan tololnya Shido nyaut, "bukan, ini air kencing buat kesehatan".

Kejadian itu semua udah lama banget, sekitar 4 taun yang lalu. Makanya, gara2 jalan2 ke Bogor kemaren juga sama temen2 terdeket gw, siapa yang ga seneng?

FRIENDS ARE EVERYTHING, I LOVE YOU GUYS :)

The Gang Bang

Saturday, 6 March 2010

Hari ini rencana nginep di rumah Aska. Jam 3 berangkat dari rumah dianter Anip. Di jalan, kaset adapter mobil rusak, jadi ke Giant dulu beli. Udah beli, ga bisa dipake, jadi balik lagi ke Giant padahal udah setengah jalan ke rumah Aska. Selesai, dianterin ke rumah Aska. Di rumah Aska, ada Putri. Ga lama, Miki dateng, Sasit dateng. Sasit tapi pergi sebentar nganterin Putri pulang. Terus ngobrol2 deh di rumah Aska mau kemana.

Miki: PUNCAK AJALAH!

Seru banget tuh kayanya ;) nah, Sasit dateng, Tina dateng, Edi dateng, terus diomongin lagi kan jadinya enaknya kemana. Pilihan ada Puncak, Bogor, Muara Karang sama Ragusa. Dan akhirnya ditetepin ke Bogor. Dirga paling terakhir dateng, dan akhirnya kita berangcuts ke Bogor. 3 mobil, mobil Miki, mobil Tina (awas janda cantik) sama mobil Dirga.

Pertama, mobil Miki mau ke Pertok, mobil Tina mau isi bensin dan hasilnya mobil Dirga nunggu depan Citos. Ngeri banget, setiap bis ato truk lewat, mobilnya goyang -.-

Terus kita berenti di pom bensin, Dirga isi bensin sekalian cari ATM. Ngobrol2 sebentar disitu, berangcuts lagi dan nyampe ke Bogor. Disitu, gw sms anak2 buat dengerin 97.1 FM; Radio Dangdut TPI. Akhirnya dangdutan kan di mobil Dirga, ampe Dirga pusing -.- dan kirim sms ke radio itu.

"Salam kecup manis dari Anissa dan Dirga yang selalu setia dengerin Dangdut TPI! Request lagu dangdut yang hot dong",...........itu isi sms yg gw kirim.

Terus cari2 tempat, akhirnya berenti di De Koffie-Pot. Cafe gelap remang2 asik tempat Edi tinggal. Baru duduk setengah jam kali dsitu, eh cafenya duah mau tutup zz langsung cabs ke Bonex 69 eaaaa makan Seafood. Dan gw inget banget Miki ngomong MAKAN DULU SEBELOM BERDOA dan Edi ngomong ES TEH MANIS HARUS PAKE ES, KALO GA JADI ES TEH MANI DONG, JOROK.

Akhirnya selesai makan, balik pulang ke rumah Aska. Di jalan, sempet ada kejadian ngeri. Dirga lagi ngebut sekitar 160an, trs ada Avanza ngasih lampu, Dirga minggir ke kiri, Avanza ngebut, Dirga ambil kanan lagi, nah pas lagi ngebut sekita 170an, Avanza ngambil kiri, dan tiba2 kaya karpet cokelat segede kap mobil kelempar ke mobil Dirga. Anjritttt gw kaget jantung rasanya kaya dikelitikin, mana Dirga sempet banting setir ke kiri, ngeri abis gw pikir KAP MESIN. Akhirnya berenti bentar ke kiri biar karpet gila itu jatoh terus jalan lagi. Hasilnya, mulut gw gemeteran.

hasil belajar gila si Dirga. Masih mending segini..........................

Iyak akhirnya sampai dengan selamet di rumah Aska. Ngobrol2 trs nonton The Hangover sambil nungguin Dyne. Tina sempet tidur tuh. Ngobrol terus ampe pagi, Dirga mau pulang juga ga bisa, kuncinya diumpetin. Dyne dateng sama seorang lelaki bernama Lucky (eaa). Dan Dyne sama Sasit tidur duluan. Akhirnya sekitar jam 5an, Dirga pulang, disusul sama Edi sama Miki balik jam 6an. Akhirnya gw sama Tina tidur. Aska juga tidur di bawah.

What a night. Rasanya seneng banget kumpul2 bareng sahabat2 yang udah lama ga kumpul bareng. Mana Aska akhir bulang mau cabs ke Jepang, wah makin kurang orang buat kumpul2.

Dan satu yang gw sadarin dari cerita diatas, WE'LL BE MISSING ASKA SO MUCH.

WHY?

Rumah Aska adalah rumah ter pewe buat nginep ato nongkrong. Rumah Aska udah kaya basecamp orang2. Rumah Aska berkabut bikin mata perih. Dan kalo Aska pergi ke Jepang, kita ga bisa lagi maen kesitu. Mana Aska orang asik, makanan rumahnya enak2 dan kamarnya tuh WOHOHOOWHOWOW pewe banget.

What do you think guys? Gw dengan jujur bilang, kalo ya, gw bakal kehilangan Aska banget2. Sahabat sejalan banget si Aska. Mami yang baik dan pekerja s**s yang hebat. Gw yakin, gw bakal nangis ampe mampus pas dia pergi.

WE LOVE YOU ASKANDARI NAKAGAWA :)

PS: Kirimin bluefilm lo ya Azuka Nakagawa xxx! Jangan lupa! Emmmmmm...Preww!

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What, Dad? He Wants To Talk? Not Today!

Jujur, gw emang buat post ini buat LO YANG SELALU NGECEKIN BLOG GW.

Muhammad Raihan Putra.
Lo ga capek apa ngintilin gw mulu? Ngecekin Twitter gw mulu?
Ampe ngebookmark Facebook gw biar lo bisa cek tiap hari?
Gw tau kok, and you cant fool me with your illusion.
Dan gw tau, tadi pagi lo nelfon gw sampe 5 kali dan gw masih tidur.
Dan ga usah telfon gw lagi, apa pun alesannya.

Re, udah kenapa sih? Lo ga cape apa selama ini usaha lo ga membuahkan hasil?
Lo ga bisa apa jalan maju ke depan?
Takut apa sih?

Re, lo selama ini kerjaannya cuma cari musuh.
Apa yang lo lakuin sama gw cuma bikin gw makin benci sama lo..
Walopun lo nelfon gw juga cuma curhat ga penting tapi.. Itu ngaruh banget buat gw.

You will find someone better than me.
Move on, dan jangan pernah liat ke belakang lagi.

Deficiency As the Excess

I've been thinking about something.

I'm different from you and other girls.
Why?

I love alien and predator.

Alien VS Predator?
Cool movie :D

I love Captain Jack Sparrow.
Well, everybody does.

Oh and i'm in love with his father, Captain Teague :D

And Captain Davy Jones!

the way he talks, i love it :)

Animals. Ehem.
I love white tiger.

He/she looks so pretty, isn't he/she?

For dog, i choose Samoyed

Stunning to look at xD

ORCA!

T-REX!

Dolphin, Donald Duck, The Little Mermaid, Homer Simpson, The Joker, Hans Zimmer, James Horner, Robert Downey Jr., Taylor Lautner, Billie Joe Armstrong, Stratocaster, Toyota Landcruiser, Disney's movies, Guy Fawkes, oreo, baby elephant, Tibet, Hawaii, Maldives, Bora-Bora, Peru, Thailand, Hidenori Iwasaki, Rikku, Harvest Moon, Bring Her Head To Athena, The Joker, Front Mission 4, Scrab, servbot, piano, Dino Crisis etc....

I'm weird.

New Moon? Sorry I'm Late!

Hottest person in the world? Ask me!

Taylor Lautner.
One thing i can not believe; he's still 17. And i'm fuckin 18. WTH??

New Moon looked interesting for me. Why?
Jacob Black! He looked gorgeous, handsome.. that packs............ looked yummy :D

Other packs are also very very... Yum!

Alex Meraz a.k.a Paul

Kiowa Gordon a.k.a Embry
(he looks cute with his emo hari :p)

And The Bloodsuckers!

Peter Facinelli a.k.a Carlisle Cullen
...
Dont ask.

Jamie Campbell a.k.a Caius

And last, my favorite!

Dakota Fanning a.k.a Jane

Dakota looks fabulous!
My favorite line is when she said "PAIN"
And Edward struggled on the floor :D